First of all, before we get to the down-right seriousness of my blog, I would like to say that I'm sorry for totally failing and not reaching my goal of posting every week. I know that I am a deep failure and that you are all sadly disappointed in me.
To slightly explain I have just been busy with everything -- school, church, clarinet, piano. Whew i'm in a ton of things. And as I said last post (or... I believe I said? I might be losing my mind...) unfortunately you guys are not my highest priority in life.
Anyways, to the seriousness.
I've been thinking a lot lately. Actually church tonight kind of sprung up this final epiphany. (I think that's the word.. ah ha moment?) I don't really have a "inner circle" like most people would expect. I don't have a single person that I tell EVERYTHING to. I have people that I tell most things. But not everything.
Another thing that brought this on was the fact that I've been reading a book called Just Listen by Sarah Dessen. In this book the main character meets Owen, who helps her to become completely honest. To not hold back anything. And that made me think about how deceptive society is. People are constantly asking me (maybe it's just because I'm in High School) about how they look, their hair, their makeup. And would I tell them if it looked bad? Definitely not. Why? They asked right?
One more thing that I've been thinking about is the fact that I'm not really in a "group." Yes, i have a group of people that I mainly hang out with. I could name 10 (er... 7) off the top of my head. But we don't do all the same things. We're in all the same classes and Band, but other than that what do we have in common? Nothing. Now what about my church friends? Well. Most of them are into sports which I am so obviously not into it's not even funny. (Remember that phase (those of you long time readers) when I was in a health-craze?? Yeah.. not happening so much now. )
Another thing (man.. this is getting long and drawn out... sorry guys!) that drives me nuts about church is that people are so fake and hypocritical (including me sometimes.....) that it drives me nuts. Like during youth group we have about 20 minutes or so of worship, and there is always the SAME PERSON that raises their hands every time. Now, I know that raising their hands is an act of worship, and if that is what they are doing, then fine, but it appears to be that they are doing it just to look like the "godly thing to do." (disclaimer: They could be worshipping. Technically who am I to judge? But I'm just saying what it looks like to my (human, not godly) eyes.) Why? Why pretend? Why not be real??
So basically what I was trying to say through all of that drawn out, bunny-trailing, ranting, and raving is that a) I don't have anyone I tell EVERYTHING to. b) I'm not ever completely totally honest (without holding back anything) to anyone. and C) church sometimes drives me crazy. Even though I do the things that drive me crazy in other people. Which is technically a hypocritical attitude. Which I apologize for now. (at least I realize I'm being the slightest bit hypocritical right????? :/ )
So thanks for reading! Please comment below even if it's to call me a zealot-who-doesn't-like-arabic-people (Long story... yes I was called this this week. And no it's not true! I have many arabic friends.)
Love you all blog readers! Hopefully you won't have to wait too long for my next post.
<3- Kathryn
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
First Mistake
Hello Blog Readers and Followers :)))
So three weeks into my goal and I've already made a mistake. What do I have to say to this?? Oh well. School happens. Life happens. And sadly, although very important to me, you, my dear blog followers, are not the most important things in my life. I have other things to worry about. Like school. And my room. And my family. And church. So I... accidentally forgot about blogging.
BUT!!!! Here's the good news: I will still be blogging with the same goal. Only instead of new posts coming out on Thursdays they will come Fridays. :)
So... onto school. It's been... well... interesting. the consolers, or the computer system, or whatever SOMEHOW messed up my schedule. So now my schedule looks like this:
1. Pre AP Biology
2. Geometry
3. Spanish 2
4. Band
5. English
6. History
7. Business Information Management
INSTEAD OF
1. Geometry, Biology, History or Spanish
2. Choir
3. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish
4. Band
5. English
6. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish
7. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish.
So basically... they took me out of Choir (my love... if you didn't know) and put me in Business Information Management (from now on referred to as BIM). BIM is a class where you learn how to use a computer and the Microsoft Office Suite. Now, I'm not trying to say I have professional skills, but I have a pretty fundamental knowledge of Word, Outlook, Excel, Publisher, ect. I don't plan on being a secretary or anything where I have to use a computer. (Now, I know that things happen in life where you HAVE to be a secretary or have an office job so that you can provide for your family. And if those things happen... I WILL be anything that will take me.) I plan on being a musician. Weather through Private Lessons, a teacher (who... yes has to use a computer, but it's not her/his MAIN job), a music minister, ect.
It makes me a little mad but there's not much I can do about it.
So... questions for you:
1. How was your first (or second? or third??) week of school? Did anything ... interesting ... happen?
2. If you don't go to school, how was your week????
Haha thank you guys for reading.
XOXO- Love always!
-Kathryn
So three weeks into my goal and I've already made a mistake. What do I have to say to this?? Oh well. School happens. Life happens. And sadly, although very important to me, you, my dear blog followers, are not the most important things in my life. I have other things to worry about. Like school. And my room. And my family. And church. So I... accidentally forgot about blogging.
BUT!!!! Here's the good news: I will still be blogging with the same goal. Only instead of new posts coming out on Thursdays they will come Fridays. :)
So... onto school. It's been... well... interesting. the consolers, or the computer system, or whatever SOMEHOW messed up my schedule. So now my schedule looks like this:
1. Pre AP Biology
2. Geometry
3. Spanish 2
4. Band
5. English
6. History
7. Business Information Management
INSTEAD OF
1. Geometry, Biology, History or Spanish
2. Choir
3. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish
4. Band
5. English
6. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish
7. Geometry, Biology, History, or Spanish.
So basically... they took me out of Choir (my love... if you didn't know) and put me in Business Information Management (from now on referred to as BIM). BIM is a class where you learn how to use a computer and the Microsoft Office Suite. Now, I'm not trying to say I have professional skills, but I have a pretty fundamental knowledge of Word, Outlook, Excel, Publisher, ect. I don't plan on being a secretary or anything where I have to use a computer. (Now, I know that things happen in life where you HAVE to be a secretary or have an office job so that you can provide for your family. And if those things happen... I WILL be anything that will take me.) I plan on being a musician. Weather through Private Lessons, a teacher (who... yes has to use a computer, but it's not her/his MAIN job), a music minister, ect.
It makes me a little mad but there's not much I can do about it.
So... questions for you:
1. How was your first (or second? or third??) week of school? Did anything ... interesting ... happen?
2. If you don't go to school, how was your week????
Haha thank you guys for reading.
XOXO- Love always!
-Kathryn
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Week 2
Hey guys it's week 2 and right on time (or... 7 minutes late..) I'm getting my blog post for the week in ;)
So first of all on the 14th, at 5:00 am, 17 PEOPLE VEIWED MY BLOG. I have no idea where this great spasm of viewers came from. But welcome anyways I hope you become regular.
Second of all... as (most) of you know... I am a music junkie. Music is my life I love it love it love it and I plan to be an elementary music teacher when I "grow up" and get a real job. So I decided "what the heck. I might as well join senior adult choir. (No i'm not a senior adult. It's just they're nicer than regular adults. Especially to "younguns" who want to join them.)" So Wednesday night was the first rehearsal and OH MY GOODNESS it was amazing. I loveeee choir so singing worship songs was absolutely fantastic, and secondly (I'm probably the only one who thinks this, but whatever so far i've been completely honest) OLD PEOPLE ARE HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it was just like constant laughter the whole 45 minutes.
So please pray for me Sunday. I practiced for 45 minutes and I have to perform like 8 songs. The perfectionist in me is freaking out, but somehow I'll make it through I KNOW I will. :) (Even if it means making up a part... ;) )
I love you guys and I am anxiously awaiting the next time I will post. Again, at the LATEST I promise it will be Thursday night. But probably earlier than that since school is starting Monday and I will have awesome juicy details about my teachers and drama. :)
<3 XOXO - Kathryn.
P.S. IF YOU ARE A NERD, READ BELOW.
Okay so for our summer reading project for school we had to read Fahrenheit 451 (by Ray Bradbury) and do a little packet. So tonight I was working on it and I was on the part where we had to pick a quote and explain it's importance, and what I wrote was REALLY good so I'm going to write it hear.
Quote: "We must all be alike. Not everyone born free and equal as the Constitution says, but everyone made equal. Each man the image of every other; then all are happy, for there are no mountains to make them cower, to judge themselves against."
Significance: This quote is a warning against equality, so to speak. This quote reminds me of Harrison Burgeron by Kurt Vonnegut. (Side note: best short story ever. If you haven't read it... READ IT!!!) In this short story, anyone who is better or superior to anyone else is "handicapped" to be equal. Humans are created not equal. Everyone has different talents and abilities. Everyone is great at something, and not so great at something else. When we limit this "greatness" (weather with finances, academics, music, sports, art, ect.) we hinder humanity from excelling as we were made to do.
So what do you think? Do you disagree or disagree with me???? (I personally think that this is a work of genius... but of course it's my own writing so.. that only means I have a big head haha. :) )
So first of all on the 14th, at 5:00 am, 17 PEOPLE VEIWED MY BLOG. I have no idea where this great spasm of viewers came from. But welcome anyways I hope you become regular.
Second of all... as (most) of you know... I am a music junkie. Music is my life I love it love it love it and I plan to be an elementary music teacher when I "grow up" and get a real job. So I decided "what the heck. I might as well join senior adult choir. (No i'm not a senior adult. It's just they're nicer than regular adults. Especially to "younguns" who want to join them.)" So Wednesday night was the first rehearsal and OH MY GOODNESS it was amazing. I loveeee choir so singing worship songs was absolutely fantastic, and secondly (I'm probably the only one who thinks this, but whatever so far i've been completely honest) OLD PEOPLE ARE HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it was just like constant laughter the whole 45 minutes.
So please pray for me Sunday. I practiced for 45 minutes and I have to perform like 8 songs. The perfectionist in me is freaking out, but somehow I'll make it through I KNOW I will. :) (Even if it means making up a part... ;) )
I love you guys and I am anxiously awaiting the next time I will post. Again, at the LATEST I promise it will be Thursday night. But probably earlier than that since school is starting Monday and I will have awesome juicy details about my teachers and drama. :)
<3 XOXO - Kathryn.
P.S. IF YOU ARE A NERD, READ BELOW.
Okay so for our summer reading project for school we had to read Fahrenheit 451 (by Ray Bradbury) and do a little packet. So tonight I was working on it and I was on the part where we had to pick a quote and explain it's importance, and what I wrote was REALLY good so I'm going to write it hear.
Quote: "We must all be alike. Not everyone born free and equal as the Constitution says, but everyone made equal. Each man the image of every other; then all are happy, for there are no mountains to make them cower, to judge themselves against."
Significance: This quote is a warning against equality, so to speak. This quote reminds me of Harrison Burgeron by Kurt Vonnegut. (Side note: best short story ever. If you haven't read it... READ IT!!!) In this short story, anyone who is better or superior to anyone else is "handicapped" to be equal. Humans are created not equal. Everyone has different talents and abilities. Everyone is great at something, and not so great at something else. When we limit this "greatness" (weather with finances, academics, music, sports, art, ect.) we hinder humanity from excelling as we were made to do.
So what do you think? Do you disagree or disagree with me???? (I personally think that this is a work of genius... but of course it's my own writing so.. that only means I have a big head haha. :) )
Thursday, August 11, 2011
New Goal!!!
Hello, and welcome one new follower!! (Is it bad that I make this big of a deal out of followers?? It just makes me excited that people are ACTUALLY reading what I have to say :o)
As stated above I am about to list my new blogging goals for this year! (which is always interesting!!) I am actually going to aim to stick to these instead of flake out as usual when I make goals. I'm also going to set this goal as something that's ACTUALLY reasonable. (Once a day?? A little too much, both for me and for you...)
So you're probably thinking, "Stop gibber gibbering about this goal and get on with it! Stop procrastinating!!" So here it is:
My blogger goal for this school year (should I go with the first semester?? A whole school year might be too much of a commitment for me...) is to blog once a week (even if it's on the weekends or in the middle of the night...) about something that's actually worth my followers time to read.
For instance -- I know that none of you care about the drama going on at church, school, ect. Plus that takes too much time to type and it's too confusing... (Also what if I got famous, and they read my blog, and they figured out I was writing about them?? Yikes!!) So I will try and come up with something good and creative to write about... No guarantees... It could be some boring thing about Biology or World Geography. But I will try nevertheless.
So again, thank you for reading dear blog-readers! And if not before then, I will see you next Thursday.
XOXO <3- Kathryn
P.S. Preguntas para tu! (Questions for you!)
1. Do you speak Spanish? (at all?? a little?? Spanglish?)
2. What are your school year/fall goals?? What about for blogging?? (My school year goals also include keeping my room clean and never forgetting to bring anything to school/home, as well as being in the top 10 of my grade.)
3. Do you think I'm going to flake out on my blogging goal? (be honest... you won't hurt my feelings!!)
As stated above I am about to list my new blogging goals for this year! (which is always interesting!!) I am actually going to aim to stick to these instead of flake out as usual when I make goals. I'm also going to set this goal as something that's ACTUALLY reasonable. (Once a day?? A little too much, both for me and for you...)
So you're probably thinking, "Stop gibber gibbering about this goal and get on with it! Stop procrastinating!!" So here it is:
My blogger goal for this school year (should I go with the first semester?? A whole school year might be too much of a commitment for me...) is to blog once a week (even if it's on the weekends or in the middle of the night...) about something that's actually worth my followers time to read.
For instance -- I know that none of you care about the drama going on at church, school, ect. Plus that takes too much time to type and it's too confusing... (Also what if I got famous, and they read my blog, and they figured out I was writing about them?? Yikes!!) So I will try and come up with something good and creative to write about... No guarantees... It could be some boring thing about Biology or World Geography. But I will try nevertheless.
So again, thank you for reading dear blog-readers! And if not before then, I will see you next Thursday.
XOXO <3- Kathryn
P.S. Preguntas para tu! (Questions for you!)
1. Do you speak Spanish? (at all?? a little?? Spanglish?)
2. What are your school year/fall goals?? What about for blogging?? (My school year goals also include keeping my room clean and never forgetting to bring anything to school/home, as well as being in the top 10 of my grade.)
3. Do you think I'm going to flake out on my blogging goal? (be honest... you won't hurt my feelings!!)
Sunday, July 24, 2011
WOW girl 2 returns
Hey guys its me girl 2! I have been so busy since we made this! School has been the main thing, but also lots of other distractions, most importantly I have forgotten all about it! :) Well if you're wondering how I have been? Right now, I am depressed depressed out of my young little skull! I have had so much drama in the past week that I just want my head to explode! I don't know but my main problem is that I am fighting with my mom! I don't know.....I just feel like crying! grr sorry! anyways I am glad to see that we have 7 followers! Well technically girl 1 has seven viewers! But anyways, you might as well change the name of this to the adventures of girl one because I don't really think any of you care about what I am doing! so there I am sorry to be so dramatic, but that's just me! :) I hope girl 1 doesn't get mad at me! but if so im sorry! I love you girl!
-girl 2
-girl 2
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Dear 7 followers
Hello! This is a personalized note to you! That is if any of you are reading this... which is not probable. I'm going to ask you a few questions about yourselves, and I would ask that you please respond. But again, none of you are listening to me so why do I even ask???... :)
1.) Where are you from? I think it's so cool when people from exotic (or at least exotic to me) places veiw my blog. I'm just a humble kid from Texas and people all the way from Australia (!!!!) are looking at what I have to say. I feel special <3
2.) Do you have any advice for me? I have been blogging for (about) a year now, (half a year at this location) and some of you have been following me the whole way. (P.S. Don't be afraid to be rude! Constructive criticism is the best thing ever, and I have tough skin!!)
3.) What's your blog name? I don't follow many of you and it would be awesome to have more posts in my que (sp??) when I log on.
Also, I wanted to thank you SO. MUCH. This blog has been everything I could ever hope or dream of, and more, and (hopefully) it's headed to high places. Probably not. But still. A girl can dream right?
Love you guys forever and always, you rock my world Blogger Peeps!!!
<3- Kathryn
P.S. Followers includes regular readers!!
1.) Where are you from? I think it's so cool when people from exotic (or at least exotic to me) places veiw my blog. I'm just a humble kid from Texas and people all the way from Australia (!!!!) are looking at what I have to say. I feel special <3
2.) Do you have any advice for me? I have been blogging for (about) a year now, (half a year at this location) and some of you have been following me the whole way. (P.S. Don't be afraid to be rude! Constructive criticism is the best thing ever, and I have tough skin!!)
3.) What's your blog name? I don't follow many of you and it would be awesome to have more posts in my que (sp??) when I log on.
Also, I wanted to thank you SO. MUCH. This blog has been everything I could ever hope or dream of, and more, and (hopefully) it's headed to high places. Probably not. But still. A girl can dream right?
Love you guys forever and always, you rock my world Blogger Peeps!!!
<3- Kathryn
P.S. Followers includes regular readers!!
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Twitter!!
Hey guys!
Sorry (again) for the lack of posting lately.
Anywho.. The point of this blog is to tell you about my (new!) Twitter account!!! You can follow me at @kltune if you would like to. :)
So for a few questions...
1.) Do you twitter?
2.) Why or why not?
3.) Do you have any advice for a new twitter person? (aka... me...)
Thanks for reading! I have about 3 more weeks left in Iowa, and then I will be back to my semi-normal posting routine! Love you guys!
XOXO- Kathryn
Sorry (again) for the lack of posting lately.
Anywho.. The point of this blog is to tell you about my (new!) Twitter account!!! You can follow me at @kltune if you would like to. :)
So for a few questions...
1.) Do you twitter?
2.) Why or why not?
3.) Do you have any advice for a new twitter person? (aka... me...)
Thanks for reading! I have about 3 more weeks left in Iowa, and then I will be back to my semi-normal posting routine! Love you guys!
XOXO- Kathryn
Monday, July 4, 2011
Taking A Break
Hey guys :) As you probably know I have been in Iowa for the past week and will be in Iowa for the next 3 weeks (about.) We are so crazy busy that I have not had a chance to update my blog with my devotionals and journal entries. So I am "taking a break" until I get back home. But I will still try to update periodically. I hope this doesn't turn you guys away!! I want to keep all 7 (WOW... so many!!) of my followers (as well as the anonymous readers...) :) I love you guys!!!
XOXO
-Kathryn
XOXO
-Kathryn
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 12 (Continued)
12:02 AM (the morning of 6.28.11)
Dear journal,
Nothing interesting really going on today. Thomas and I walked to Braum's [An ice cream shop close to us. The best ice cream I've ever had. Check out the website here] and Famous Dogs. [Famous dogs is a local hot dog stand. 99 cents for the best hot dog ever. Braum's ad Famous Dogs are within walking distance from our house.] That's pretty much. Tomorrow is our last (full) day before our trip. [Every year since I can remember my brother and I travel to Iowa to be with my grandparents for about a month. We are staying for 6 weeks this time because of the fact that it might be my last year. Next year I would like to try and get a job or try and intern at a camp, which would further limit the dates we could go up there.] I'm excited to go, get away, take a break from Texas. The lake is calling my name. [Did I mention my grandparents live on a lake?]
<3- Kathryn
P.S. Maybe I need to get a new time to write? I always seem so tired right before bed.
[That's all for today. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to post the next couple of days since we will be driving. But as always as soon as I get a chance I will update you on my doings. Thanks for reading you guys :)
XOXO- Kathryn]
Dear journal,
Nothing interesting really going on today. Thomas and I walked to Braum's [An ice cream shop close to us. The best ice cream I've ever had. Check out the website here] and Famous Dogs. [Famous dogs is a local hot dog stand. 99 cents for the best hot dog ever. Braum's ad Famous Dogs are within walking distance from our house.] That's pretty much. Tomorrow is our last (full) day before our trip. [Every year since I can remember my brother and I travel to Iowa to be with my grandparents for about a month. We are staying for 6 weeks this time because of the fact that it might be my last year. Next year I would like to try and get a job or try and intern at a camp, which would further limit the dates we could go up there.] I'm excited to go, get away, take a break from Texas. The lake is calling my name. [Did I mention my grandparents live on a lake?]
<3- Kathryn
P.S. Maybe I need to get a new time to write? I always seem so tired right before bed.
[That's all for today. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to post the next couple of days since we will be driving. But as always as soon as I get a chance I will update you on my doings. Thanks for reading you guys :)
XOXO- Kathryn]
Day 12
[Day 12 of my amazing adventure.]
6.27.11 9:46 AM
God Girl Devotional, Day 3. [This is a book that my parents bought me for christmas. It's a devotional. I would strongly suggest to buy it. It was a great gift for me. Click here if you're interested :) ]
S) Enoch walked with God, then he was gone because God took him. Genesis 5:4
O) Because Enoch had such a close relationship with God, he didn't have to die. He just ascended. Example to follow.
A) My relationship with God should be the number one priority in my life. Not my blog, [sorry guys] facebook, friends, or anything else.
P) Dear God,
I want to be focused on you all the time. Please help me to be that way. Amen
One 19 Revolution, Day 1 [This is something I learned about at camp. Psalms 119 has 24 stanzas, all divided up into 8 verses each. The challenge is to read one stanza a day and pick one verse to use the SOAP method on. Click here for the facebook page.]
S) Happy are those who keep His decrees and seek Him with all their heart. Psalms 119:2
O) If you keep God's word, you will be happy. This is a promise to keep.
A) Keep God's word. Seek Him with all my heart.
P) Dear jesus,
Help me to follow you. Help me to seek you with all my heart. I love you. Amen
Our Daily Bread [This is a free devotional book I get every 3 months. It is free to receive. It has a devotional for every day, and it also says what chapters to read if you are going through the Bible in a Year. Click here to order online.]
S) God had mercy on Him, and not only on Him, but also on me, so that I would not have one grief on top of another. Philippians 2:27
O) God will not give you more than you can handle. Trust Him even through the storms of life to help you with the burdens He has given you.
A) Pray. The only person who can really help you with death is God. He did not give you something you could not handle.
P) Dear God,
Please help me get through this. You are my only strength. Help me hold close to you. Amen.
Music
1. Light makes a way, Remedy Drive
3. Instincts, Ivoryline
5. Back to the Basics, Run Kid Run
8. Good Morning Planetarium, Falling Up
[Thanks for reading guys! My journal post will (again) be in a separate post.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.27.11 9:46 AM
God Girl Devotional, Day 3. [This is a book that my parents bought me for christmas. It's a devotional. I would strongly suggest to buy it. It was a great gift for me. Click here if you're interested :) ]
S) Enoch walked with God, then he was gone because God took him. Genesis 5:4
O) Because Enoch had such a close relationship with God, he didn't have to die. He just ascended. Example to follow.
A) My relationship with God should be the number one priority in my life. Not my blog, [sorry guys] facebook, friends, or anything else.
P) Dear God,
I want to be focused on you all the time. Please help me to be that way. Amen
One 19 Revolution, Day 1 [This is something I learned about at camp. Psalms 119 has 24 stanzas, all divided up into 8 verses each. The challenge is to read one stanza a day and pick one verse to use the SOAP method on. Click here for the facebook page.]
S) Happy are those who keep His decrees and seek Him with all their heart. Psalms 119:2
O) If you keep God's word, you will be happy. This is a promise to keep.
A) Keep God's word. Seek Him with all my heart.
P) Dear jesus,
Help me to follow you. Help me to seek you with all my heart. I love you. Amen
Our Daily Bread [This is a free devotional book I get every 3 months. It is free to receive. It has a devotional for every day, and it also says what chapters to read if you are going through the Bible in a Year. Click here to order online.]
S) God had mercy on Him, and not only on Him, but also on me, so that I would not have one grief on top of another. Philippians 2:27
O) God will not give you more than you can handle. Trust Him even through the storms of life to help you with the burdens He has given you.
A) Pray. The only person who can really help you with death is God. He did not give you something you could not handle.
P) Dear God,
Please help me get through this. You are my only strength. Help me hold close to you. Amen.
Music
1. Light makes a way, Remedy Drive
- Light makes a way through the darkness.
3. Instincts, Ivoryline
- Instincts can not keep me from sin. Only God's help can. [P.S. I REALLY like this song :) Listen to it!!! It is also available on Playlist, a website where you can build your own set of songs.]
5. Back to the Basics, Run Kid Run
- The Bible should be the first place we go to. Especially in the hard times.
- When caught in a pattern of sin, go back to the Bible for advice.
- God only wants us to give ourselves to Him. Good, bad, ugly, everything. He will take care of the rest. [Another really good song..]
8. Good Morning Planetarium, Falling Up
[Thanks for reading guys! My journal post will (again) be in a separate post.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Monday, June 27, 2011
Day 11 (continued)
[This is the journal entry for the 11th day of my amazing adventure]
11:47 PM
Dear journal,
Today was a l-o-n-g day. It was the first Sunday without Pastor Tommy. Overall I handled it well though. I think. I cried the most during small group when I talked about how P.T. [Pastor Tommy] chose Dad's table. [My dad was the leader of a table at Men's Breakfast, and the Pastor chose to be at his table.] Then later on we went to church to visit with Rita, Joy, Julie, and Johnathon. Then I started crying mostly because mom started crying, and she's one of the least emotional people I know. Then we talked to Mrs. Tammy. I told her about how I felt like I had been called to ministry. [Let me explain. At camp I realized that I think God has been speaking to me and trying to call me to do something. I don't know if that means preschool, children, or music minister, or if it means being a missionary. Bu honestly I'm just trying to pray and take things one step at a time.] We cried. At home I asked Brendan* to pray for me, and he was actually really comforting. he mentioned how God moves in mysterious ways, and how I shouldn't lose m faith. I never thought there would be a day when I sought spiritual advice from him. Oh, and I also asked about his spiritual life and he said it's going well. Even though I probably had nothing to do with it, I feel like I planted/watered/weeded the plant, and that makes me feel good. Well I am going to seep. I am one tired girl.
<3- K
11:47 PM
Dear journal,
Today was a l-o-n-g day. It was the first Sunday without Pastor Tommy. Overall I handled it well though. I think. I cried the most during small group when I talked about how P.T. [Pastor Tommy] chose Dad's table. [My dad was the leader of a table at Men's Breakfast, and the Pastor chose to be at his table.] Then later on we went to church to visit with Rita, Joy, Julie, and Johnathon. Then I started crying mostly because mom started crying, and she's one of the least emotional people I know. Then we talked to Mrs. Tammy. I told her about how I felt like I had been called to ministry. [Let me explain. At camp I realized that I think God has been speaking to me and trying to call me to do something. I don't know if that means preschool, children, or music minister, or if it means being a missionary. Bu honestly I'm just trying to pray and take things one step at a time.] We cried. At home I asked Brendan* to pray for me, and he was actually really comforting. he mentioned how God moves in mysterious ways, and how I shouldn't lose m faith. I never thought there would be a day when I sought spiritual advice from him. Oh, and I also asked about his spiritual life and he said it's going well. Even though I probably had nothing to do with it, I feel like I planted/watered/weeded the plant, and that makes me feel good. Well I am going to seep. I am one tired girl.
<3- K
Day 11
[Day 11 of my Fantastical journey]
6.26.11 7:11 AM
Devotional
S) The man answered, "That woman, the one you gave me, gave me some fruit from the tree and I ate it." Then the Lord God asked the woman "What have you done?" "The snake deceived me, and I ate," the woman answered. Genesis 3:12-13
O) Man blamed woman, woman blamed snake. No one was responsible for their sin. God wants me to take responsibility for my actions (good and bad) instead of blaming others. Sin to confess- blame. Attitude I need to change. Example of what not to do with Adam and Eve.
A) When I sin, instead of thinking of a way that it could be someone else's fault, take responsibility for my actions and realize I'm the one who made the wrong choice.
P) Dear God,
Help me to realize that my sin is my fault, no one else's.
[Next is the music I listened to during this devotional. Enjoy!!!]
1. Reaching, Leeland
2. Everybody Praise the Lord, Lincoln Brewster
3. Shepherd, Ian Eskelin [Unfortunately I couldn't find a video for this one...]
4. I Will Never Be the Same, the Benjamin Gate [Note: This is not a Youtube Video. This is a grooveshark track :) ]
5. This is Home, Switchfoot
8. Before There Was Time - Caedman's Call
9. Pieces, RED
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.26.11 7:11 AM
Devotional
S) The man answered, "That woman, the one you gave me, gave me some fruit from the tree and I ate it." Then the Lord God asked the woman "What have you done?" "The snake deceived me, and I ate," the woman answered. Genesis 3:12-13
O) Man blamed woman, woman blamed snake. No one was responsible for their sin. God wants me to take responsibility for my actions (good and bad) instead of blaming others. Sin to confess- blame. Attitude I need to change. Example of what not to do with Adam and Eve.
A) When I sin, instead of thinking of a way that it could be someone else's fault, take responsibility for my actions and realize I'm the one who made the wrong choice.
P) Dear God,
Help me to realize that my sin is my fault, no one else's.
[Next is the music I listened to during this devotional. Enjoy!!!]
1. Reaching, Leeland
2. Everybody Praise the Lord, Lincoln Brewster
3. Shepherd, Ian Eskelin [Unfortunately I couldn't find a video for this one...]
4. I Will Never Be the Same, the Benjamin Gate [Note: This is not a Youtube Video. This is a grooveshark track :) ]
5. This is Home, Switchfoot
- Listen to what God is calling you to do. Even if it is different from what you planned for your life. What he calls you to do will bring you such joy and it will become your home
- There's none like you, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. My strength, my song, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. [These lyrics just really spoke to me I guess. Because I wrote them down.]
8. Before There Was Time - Caedman's Call
9. Pieces, RED
- God wants you to come to Him in pieces so He can work out your flaws. The only other solution is to try and piece yourself back together and that never really works out very well.
- Thank you Lord that you know my name that you look at me and everyone as the same. our love is strong, and it never changes.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Day 10
[I'm going to start including my devotionals in my posts because I have a new method of doing them (: Enjoy!!!]
6.25.11 8:26 AM
Devotional:
S) [scripture] The man and his wife... hid from the Lord God among the trees in the garden. The Lord God called to man and asked him, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden. I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid." Genesis 3:8-10
O) [Observation.] Adam and Eve hid because they were afraid of God. Do not be afraid when you sin, confess. This is an example of what NOT to do.
A) [Application.] Stop wallowing in my sin because I'm afraid of what God is going to do to me. Instead, confess so I can be forgiven.
P) [Prayer] Dear God,
Help me not to be afraid of you, and to claim your promise of loving me no matter what. Help me to confess my sin right away instead of a long time after the fact.
10:03 PM
Dear journal,
Today was Wendi's wedding. On the way to the wedding my mom, dad, and I (Thomas [my brother] was at a friend's) heard a song called Blessings. [click here to listen] It was a cry fest in the car. The wedding was good, but I got so sunburned. (More sunburned then I was at camp!) not much to say. I'm about to go to bed and prepare for a big day tomorrow.
<3- Kathryn
[For anyone who's interested: my devotional method is now the SOAP method as you can see. Please feel free to comment or email me here if you would like more information about how to cary this method out.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.25.11 8:26 AM
Devotional:
S) [scripture] The man and his wife... hid from the Lord God among the trees in the garden. The Lord God called to man and asked him, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden. I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid." Genesis 3:8-10
O) [Observation.] Adam and Eve hid because they were afraid of God. Do not be afraid when you sin, confess. This is an example of what NOT to do.
A) [Application.] Stop wallowing in my sin because I'm afraid of what God is going to do to me. Instead, confess so I can be forgiven.
P) [Prayer] Dear God,
Help me not to be afraid of you, and to claim your promise of loving me no matter what. Help me to confess my sin right away instead of a long time after the fact.
10:03 PM
Dear journal,
Today was Wendi's wedding. On the way to the wedding my mom, dad, and I (Thomas [my brother] was at a friend's) heard a song called Blessings. [click here to listen] It was a cry fest in the car. The wedding was good, but I got so sunburned. (More sunburned then I was at camp!) not much to say. I'm about to go to bed and prepare for a big day tomorrow.
<3- Kathryn
[For anyone who's interested: my devotional method is now the SOAP method as you can see. Please feel free to comment or email me here if you would like more information about how to cary this method out.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Day 9
[Day 9 of my journey.]
6.24.11 9:42 PM
Dear journal,
So today we finally came home. It was so god to see my family and hug their necks. Everyone is handling P.T.'s [Pastor Tommy] death so well. Thomas [My brother] doesn't really understand what's going on, so he's not really sad. My parents are just in "survival mode" as they say. They're busy taking care of work and home and everyone else in their life. And then there's me. Often times I want to sit alone and think. Just listen in the wind. The rest of the time I want to talk about it with someone, which is really inconvenient since my friends aren't very talkative. I guess there's not that much to say. Today has been better. My emotions have been almost non-existant instead of up and down like a roller coaster. I guess that's good.
<3- Kathryn
Day 8
[Day 8 of my adventure. And one of the hardest days of my life so far.]
6.23.11/6.24.11 12:17 AM
Dear journal,
Today has been crazy! So first of all Pastor Tommy died. [Pastor Tommy has been my pastor since I can remember. He has really mentored my parents and was the one who dedicated and baptized my brother. He has done great at leading our church in the 13 years he served us.] He was in Israel and he had a heart attack. It was really difficult for me at first when I heard about it. I was mad, angry, and bitter at God. I didn't (and still don't really) understand why. Why him? why to OUR church? Why now, right at the end of camp? I was also crying. I literally sat in the Prayer Garden and cried for an hour and a half. It was insane. I couldn't even sit in morning worship because it was too fresh on my brain. But then I went to a breakout session, lunch, rec, ect. ect. and I kind of cheered up. Probably mostly from not thinking about it, but not thinking is better then bawling. So then came evening worship. It was amazing as always. I was really touched when we sang "It Is Well." [Another AMAZING worship song. Click here to check it out.] I really finally gave up the situation to God and realized that I couldn't just stop my life. That's exactly what Satan would want me to do. Instead I realized that this is God's plan. SO although it is okay to cry and morn, I need to get off my booty, raise God, and tell people about Him. After worship, Mike K. (The Pastor at camp) spoke, and of course he mentioned P.T. [Pastor Tommy] It made everyone start crying all over again. Even *Lance and *Drake. So right then I pulled on my "mommy" pants and started comforting them. I felt like I did a good job, but I'm not sure since Lance has been avoiding me. Probably because of my crazy emotional state. So my biggest worries about this whole thing is going back home. I have no idea how my family is dealing with this. Sunday in particular is going to be especially rough. [Actually today was better then I had expected it to be.] I'm also worried as I go to Iowa that I'm going to grow apart from Christ. I guess I should just grasp to the promise that this is all in God's hands. He's in control, and as long as that's true I'm alright.
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[Hey blog readers. Thursday was a really hard day for me. As said above I really questioned God and my faith. I am okay now though. I would ask for you guys to pray for my church family and I as we pray for God's wisdom and figure out how he wants us to handle this situation. I would also ask that if you need to talk about anything that you send me an email here. I would love to talk to anyone about their faith.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.23.11/6.24.11 12:17 AM
Dear journal,
Today has been crazy! So first of all Pastor Tommy died. [Pastor Tommy has been my pastor since I can remember. He has really mentored my parents and was the one who dedicated and baptized my brother. He has done great at leading our church in the 13 years he served us.] He was in Israel and he had a heart attack. It was really difficult for me at first when I heard about it. I was mad, angry, and bitter at God. I didn't (and still don't really) understand why. Why him? why to OUR church? Why now, right at the end of camp? I was also crying. I literally sat in the Prayer Garden and cried for an hour and a half. It was insane. I couldn't even sit in morning worship because it was too fresh on my brain. But then I went to a breakout session, lunch, rec, ect. ect. and I kind of cheered up. Probably mostly from not thinking about it, but not thinking is better then bawling. So then came evening worship. It was amazing as always. I was really touched when we sang "It Is Well." [Another AMAZING worship song. Click here to check it out.] I really finally gave up the situation to God and realized that I couldn't just stop my life. That's exactly what Satan would want me to do. Instead I realized that this is God's plan. SO although it is okay to cry and morn, I need to get off my booty, raise God, and tell people about Him. After worship, Mike K. (The Pastor at camp) spoke, and of course he mentioned P.T. [Pastor Tommy] It made everyone start crying all over again. Even *Lance and *Drake. So right then I pulled on my "mommy" pants and started comforting them. I felt like I did a good job, but I'm not sure since Lance has been avoiding me. Probably because of my crazy emotional state. So my biggest worries about this whole thing is going back home. I have no idea how my family is dealing with this. Sunday in particular is going to be especially rough. [Actually today was better then I had expected it to be.] I'm also worried as I go to Iowa that I'm going to grow apart from Christ. I guess I should just grasp to the promise that this is all in God's hands. He's in control, and as long as that's true I'm alright.
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[Hey blog readers. Thursday was a really hard day for me. As said above I really questioned God and my faith. I am okay now though. I would ask for you guys to pray for my church family and I as we pray for God's wisdom and figure out how he wants us to handle this situation. I would also ask that if you need to talk about anything that you send me an email here. I would love to talk to anyone about their faith.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Day 7
[Day 7 of my adventure <3 3rd day of camp!!]
6.22.11 12:23 AM (Okay, so technically 6.23.11, but whatevs.)
So.. camp. First of all Lance* sat by me in both worship times. [At camp we had two worship experiences, one in the morning and one at night.] Yay? We've also been talking lots and just growing closer as friends. But it is frustrating that he flirts with Betsy*, even when I'm right there. But if we're just friends I have to be okay with that, right? Okay so now onto more spiritual things. First of all, I love worship. It is amazing. (Plus- Lance sings like an angel. I could see us being that couple who always sings in harmony... anyways...) I really feel like God has been speaking to me this week.
Second of all, family group. We have really grown way close over the past 3 days, and I love it. We all share with each other and are trusting each other to keep us accountable. We talked for like an hour Afr evening worship, and I loved it.
Third of all. Evening worship. Tonight's music was great. My favorite was "Jesus Paid it All." [LOVE that song. Here's a link to it if you have never heard this song before.] Specifically it just really spoke to me.
Also, tonight was "renew-your-faith" night, and I made a decision. I decided that I was going to love me for me. I'm through hating myself and constantly putting myself down. It causes me too much needless pain- and God loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful thing He's ever seen. He created me perfectly. What right do I have to take down the value of myself? so that's all for tonight/this morning.
TTYL
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[* Names changed for anonymity.]
6.22.11 12:23 AM (Okay, so technically 6.23.11, but whatevs.)
So.. camp. First of all Lance* sat by me in both worship times. [At camp we had two worship experiences, one in the morning and one at night.] Yay? We've also been talking lots and just growing closer as friends. But it is frustrating that he flirts with Betsy*, even when I'm right there. But if we're just friends I have to be okay with that, right? Okay so now onto more spiritual things. First of all, I love worship. It is amazing. (Plus- Lance sings like an angel. I could see us being that couple who always sings in harmony... anyways...) I really feel like God has been speaking to me this week.
Second of all, family group. We have really grown way close over the past 3 days, and I love it. We all share with each other and are trusting each other to keep us accountable. We talked for like an hour Afr evening worship, and I loved it.
Third of all. Evening worship. Tonight's music was great. My favorite was "Jesus Paid it All." [LOVE that song. Here's a link to it if you have never heard this song before.] Specifically it just really spoke to me.
Also, tonight was "renew-your-faith" night, and I made a decision. I decided that I was going to love me for me. I'm through hating myself and constantly putting myself down. It causes me too much needless pain- and God loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful thing He's ever seen. He created me perfectly. What right do I have to take down the value of myself? so that's all for tonight/this morning.
TTYL
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[* Names changed for anonymity.]
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 6
[Day 6 of my adventure.]
6.21.11 10:57 PM
Dear journal,
So I'm sitting on my bed (again) writing (again). Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I L.O.V.E. my family group; they are amazing and so supportive. Lance*, Mikayla, Kourtni, and I made the "Fab (non-dramatic) five." And Lance and I held hands. <3 And during the [worship] service we touched legs. <3 (And yes, most of the time I was focused on God. Most of the time.) But his voice is hot. Like REALLY hot. [Can you tell I use a combination of capital letters and periods when I'm excited??] Again, I was focused on God. There were just... moments. And he said he loved me. Well... us (as in the Fab Five). But still, we have to start somewhere.
Oh and today I got So. Mad. because of all the crap that's going on. Like people were saying that *Cody Griffen's mom was in jail. RUMOR! And I'm just getting soooo mad about the same old same old church crap that goes on. UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! So... I just pray God takes away all distractions... at least during small group/Worship.
<3- Kathryn
[*names changed for anonymity]
6.21.11 10:57 PM
Dear journal,
So I'm sitting on my bed (again) writing (again). Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I L.O.V.E. my family group; they are amazing and so supportive. Lance*, Mikayla, Kourtni, and I made the "Fab (non-dramatic) five." And Lance and I held hands. <3 And during the [worship] service we touched legs. <3 (And yes, most of the time I was focused on God. Most of the time.) But his voice is hot. Like REALLY hot. [Can you tell I use a combination of capital letters and periods when I'm excited??] Again, I was focused on God. There were just... moments. And he said he loved me. Well... us (as in the Fab Five). But still, we have to start somewhere.
Oh and today I got So. Mad. because of all the crap that's going on. Like people were saying that *Cody Griffen's mom was in jail. RUMOR! And I'm just getting soooo mad about the same old same old church crap that goes on. UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! So... I just pray God takes away all distractions... at least during small group/Worship.
<3- Kathryn
[*names changed for anonymity]
Day 5
[First Day of camp, here we go!]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
Day 4
[Dear Blog followers: Thanks for sticking with me the past 5 days as I was at camp. I'm going to be posting all of the journal posts one right after another, so check them out if you want.]
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Day 3
[This is day 3 of my 30 day adventure. Also: things not said in my journal will be in these square things because I've found that occasionally I actually use parenthesis in my journaling.... Which made writing 'out-of-character' difficult.]
Day 3. 4.16.11 8:44 PM
Dear journal,
here's my daily check in! No Omegle -- I'm almost there! Safe! [Gosh. When am I going to stop mentioning this all the time??] Today my father gave us a long list of things to do tomorrow and I'm kind of stressed out about it. But I just have to know that if I breathe, stay calm, and work I can get it done.It's when I panic that things go wrong. I also created a bucket list! (Check it out!) I guess that yes, I am a bit young but if I start thinking now then I have longer to get it done. I was inspired because I'm watching Eat, Pray Love. And it's turning into my favorite movie ever. I decided that I want to be fearless in life. I want to take calculated risks and L.I.V.E I know that my "dream job" is an elementary school teacher, but what if I didn't have a desk job? What if I was a writer and people paid me to do my bucket list and write about it. [Having a job writing about anything would be fun... actually.] (P.S. not to self: write about experiences) I think that might be pretty amazing. (Except if I had a family... but you know...)
I also meditated. (Another Eat, Pray, Love inspiration.) [Goodness gracious I'm obsessed with this movie!!!] Not the Hindu kind. The Christian kind. But it was still amazing. Like I can't even describe it amazing. So now on to the crappy part of my day. Kayleigh*. We're still fighting. Sometimes I just feel like I should check out. Stop trying to fix the so-far-gone-down-the-drain relationships. [P.S.if you're reading this... sorry] Gah. I feel like we're in a frekin' marriage and I want to get a divorce, but she won't sign the papers! [Except for we're both girls. So totally not happening.] I wish I could run away to Italy. More good news -- my party is tomorrow. I'm so excited to just hang out and relax with my girls. So on to my devotional.
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
Thursday, June 16, 2011
My Bucket List
I hope you guys enjoy this. Please comment if you have any ideas for something for me to add. (P.S. I know I have kissing in France/Paris on there twice. I'm working on fixing that. Oh: and when I add items to my list I'll add them here too. :P )
Bucket List
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
There we go. Again, comment if you have any ideas for items for me to add to this list. Hopefully I can get to work on achieving some of these goals ASAP. Oh, and also, if you have a bucket list, please share a link to where I can see it!! (or just post it in the comments...)
Love you guys! Thanks so much for reading you guys make my day (especially when I see 16 views in 1 hour?? I know that's not much for pro-bloggers, but for the dust-on-the-ground bloggers (like me!!!) that's a lot.)
XOXO - Kathryn
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
Day Two
(Here is Day 2 of my 30 day adventure. Just a reminder, all Out of text notes will be in parenthesis)
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day One
(Okay guys so I'm going to post what I write in my journal.... with some editing of course on here.. if I have extra comments I'll write them in parentheses so you know...)
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
Friday, April 29, 2011
No Surprise
Hi blog readers...
So no surprise, it's late on a Friday night and I'm updating. Gah, I feel so bad for you guys.....
So i think it's fair to say my happy bubble is officially burst. Here's what happened:
My school band is planning a trip to a local amusement park tomorrow (technically today... but who cares?). I was not being able to sleep (Weekend night + eventful day = little sleep for this girl) so I started preparing for the day. I was planning on packing a lunch (in case you didn't know -- food at amusement parks and such is OUTRAGEOUSLY expensive...) and bringing like 2 water bottles and a gatoraid. Then, when I checked the website to see if I could bring germex (more on this later) I found out that the park does not allow outside food or drinks. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so hard to not scream right there on the spot.
So of course now i'm going to be forced to spend 30 dollars on some crappy food that's doesn't even taste good and 5 bucks on a water that's not even cold! What kind of a deal is this?
After realizing that there was no way, no how, (well.... not yet anyways) that I was going to let them do this to me I devised a plan. (I know, however, that they suck, but humor me by reading anyways).
1.) Pack my lunch in a brown sack. Hide it in the pocket of a friends bag. (this one is the most probable)
2.) Hide the brown sack under my shirt...(this one is the least probable)
3.) Pray to God, Jesus, and anyone else who's listening to give the stupid bag-checkers blind eyes to not see my easily visible lunch. (I might do this along with plan 1 or plan 2... it never hurts to ask for a little miracle sometimes, does it?)
So after all this randing and raving I feel much better and relaxed... but wait: there's more!!
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I am now a germophobe... Yes I know you probably could have predicted that from the fact that I am considering taking germex to a amusement park, but I decided to dedicate a whole half-blog-post to telling you about it. I think I'm OCD.... we had to take a test in school today and I lined up my animal crackers, jolly ranchers, pencils, erasers, and hilighters all in a perfect row. I also put germex on everytime I see it. I think I'm addicted. I don't know if it's the smell or if it makes me feel better and more "clean" or "holy" but I am just addicted.
I want you guys to know that this scares me a lot. People who are seriously OCD have major issues in their lives... so what major issue is so big that I have turned into a germaphobe? I have no idea...
So keep reading for the answer. If you care.
<3 - Girl 1. Kathryn. I don't even know what to call myself anymore.
Facts about Me.
6. I am addicted to Germex.
7. The little things upset me
8. I'm a perfectionist. I want everything to go perfectly -- the way I planned it to be perfect -- all the time, otherwise my happy bubble bursts.
So no surprise, it's late on a Friday night and I'm updating. Gah, I feel so bad for you guys.....
So i think it's fair to say my happy bubble is officially burst. Here's what happened:
My school band is planning a trip to a local amusement park tomorrow (technically today... but who cares?). I was not being able to sleep (Weekend night + eventful day = little sleep for this girl) so I started preparing for the day. I was planning on packing a lunch (in case you didn't know -- food at amusement parks and such is OUTRAGEOUSLY expensive...) and bringing like 2 water bottles and a gatoraid. Then, when I checked the website to see if I could bring germex (more on this later) I found out that the park does not allow outside food or drinks. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so hard to not scream right there on the spot.
So of course now i'm going to be forced to spend 30 dollars on some crappy food that's doesn't even taste good and 5 bucks on a water that's not even cold! What kind of a deal is this?
After realizing that there was no way, no how, (well.... not yet anyways) that I was going to let them do this to me I devised a plan. (I know, however, that they suck, but humor me by reading anyways).
1.) Pack my lunch in a brown sack. Hide it in the pocket of a friends bag. (this one is the most probable)
2.) Hide the brown sack under my shirt...(this one is the least probable)
3.) Pray to God, Jesus, and anyone else who's listening to give the stupid bag-checkers blind eyes to not see my easily visible lunch. (I might do this along with plan 1 or plan 2... it never hurts to ask for a little miracle sometimes, does it?)
So after all this randing and raving I feel much better and relaxed... but wait: there's more!!
________________________________________________________________________________
I am now a germophobe... Yes I know you probably could have predicted that from the fact that I am considering taking germex to a amusement park, but I decided to dedicate a whole half-blog-post to telling you about it. I think I'm OCD.... we had to take a test in school today and I lined up my animal crackers, jolly ranchers, pencils, erasers, and hilighters all in a perfect row. I also put germex on everytime I see it. I think I'm addicted. I don't know if it's the smell or if it makes me feel better and more "clean" or "holy" but I am just addicted.
I want you guys to know that this scares me a lot. People who are seriously OCD have major issues in their lives... so what major issue is so big that I have turned into a germaphobe? I have no idea...
So keep reading for the answer. If you care.
<3 - Girl 1. Kathryn. I don't even know what to call myself anymore.
Facts about Me.
6. I am addicted to Germex.
7. The little things upset me
8. I'm a perfectionist. I want everything to go perfectly -- the way I planned it to be perfect -- all the time, otherwise my happy bubble bursts.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Insomnia?
Hi blog readers. Sorry for the slacking off, just not much of interest has been going on with me lately.
So here I am, it's late in the evening, and I'm thinking. I have found that I think at the most inconveinent times, like now when I should be sleeping. But oh well, a little deep thought is good for everyone I suppose.
So what am I thinking about? The fact that although I am a Christain, and I know who I am in Christ, I don't knwo who I am in the world. I don't know what my legacy is. I don't know what I'm supposed to do for the cause. All in all, I really don't know who I am at all.
So my new goal for myself is to post facts that I know for sure to be true (hopefully starting simple, but getting more in depth as I go.) So I'm going to start out tonight.
1. My name is Kathryn (shocker)
2. I'm a Christian.
3. I like to watch T.V. series. The soap opera-ish ones make me feel like my life is easy and simple. It's an escape I suppose.
4. Math makes me relaxed. It seriously does. I just did two lessons from my Algebra book and I feel much more refreshed.
5. I use the word "so" a lot. I'm sure this has some secret psycological meaning that explains some conflict from my childhood I have yet to resolve yet. But I don't quite know what that is. So if you're a psycologist and you want to let me know that would be great.
Alright, (Trying to resist the "s" word) that's all I have for now. Like I said, stupid and obivous. But hopefully leading somewhere spectacular? I don't know... we'll see.
So here I am, it's late in the evening, and I'm thinking. I have found that I think at the most inconveinent times, like now when I should be sleeping. But oh well, a little deep thought is good for everyone I suppose.
So what am I thinking about? The fact that although I am a Christain, and I know who I am in Christ, I don't knwo who I am in the world. I don't know what my legacy is. I don't know what I'm supposed to do for the cause. All in all, I really don't know who I am at all.
So my new goal for myself is to post facts that I know for sure to be true (hopefully starting simple, but getting more in depth as I go.) So I'm going to start out tonight.
1. My name is Kathryn (shocker)
2. I'm a Christian.
3. I like to watch T.V. series. The soap opera-ish ones make me feel like my life is easy and simple. It's an escape I suppose.
4. Math makes me relaxed. It seriously does. I just did two lessons from my Algebra book and I feel much more refreshed.
5. I use the word "so" a lot. I'm sure this has some secret psycological meaning that explains some conflict from my childhood I have yet to resolve yet. But I don't quite know what that is. So if you're a psycologist and you want to let me know that would be great.
Alright, (Trying to resist the "s" word) that's all I have for now. Like I said, stupid and obivous. But hopefully leading somewhere spectacular? I don't know... we'll see.
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On a totally different subject:
This blog has (in a sense) totally failed. Girl 2 and I were SUPPOSED to post every single day. Well, I don't even post anymore, and Girl 2 stopped posting a while back. So we failed our mission, our goal, the bar we set for.
But in a totally different sense it is becoming a complete success. I am becoming more open with my feelings. As this is like a "public diary" of sorts, I can just let loose. No one knows who I am or anything. In fact, no one barely even reads this. So my worries of being confronted on my issues are slim to nil. :) That makes me a happy girl.
So anyways I'm going to go do something... haven't quite figured out what yet.
-Girl 1
P.S. If anyone has ideas on how to kick Insomnia, then please let me know..... :) Thank you!
Saturday, April 9, 2011
The Oregon Trail
The time in History we are studying right now in my class is the Oregon Trail. It led me to thinking to different things about my life (surprise surprise! Even the supid things can end up having a strong meaning for me. I don't even know why). The settlers that first travled the Wild, Wild West had complete conviction about an idea called Manifest Destiny (Or the idea that American's had the duty to settle all the way from the Atlantic to the Pacific Oceans). This got me to thinking about the last time I did something in my life with complete conviction. Most of the time I do things, or I change my ways, but I'm not 100% sure, or I'm not giving all I can to the cause that I'm "fighting" for. I guess I just realized that the reason things in my life are so dull and boring is because I take no risks or leaps of faith. I am so comfortable sitting in my chair/comfortable bed/house doing nothing outside of my normal routine. I think I need to change that. Now, I don't exactly know what to do. I guess blogging was a big step, but I'm not even sure if that counts anymore since only 2 people (even supposedly) read my blog regularly, so it's not like I'm reaching a mass audience of people (not that my blog is good enough to read anyways). But I guess what makes blogging a big step for me is the fact that I have to take my thoughts, and put them into tangebal sentences and ideas that you guys out there will understand. I have to take my thoughts and communicate them to others. I think that sometimes that's really hard, because it's so much easier to hold everyhitng inside and just sit there and grouch and grouch. But when you let your thoughts out, then you get rid of the grouchiness and make room for all the "good stuff" in life.
Maybe that's my problem. I sit and mope around about all the bad stuff (that's not even a big deal.. it's little stuff like the electricity going out, staying up late to do a project, ect.ect.) that I have no room in my heart and my head for the good stuff in life.
So now that I've gone off on about 5 different bunny trails and none of you could possibly understand the point of the above ramblings..... I have some questions for you.
1. Why do you blog/Why don't you blog?
2. Does communicating your feelings help you feel better? Or does it make you feel worse?
Thanks for reading
<3 Girl 1
P.S. Even if you're not a member of blogger you can comment! So don't be afraid to press the little button below. :)
Maybe that's my problem. I sit and mope around about all the bad stuff (that's not even a big deal.. it's little stuff like the electricity going out, staying up late to do a project, ect.ect.) that I have no room in my heart and my head for the good stuff in life.
So now that I've gone off on about 5 different bunny trails and none of you could possibly understand the point of the above ramblings..... I have some questions for you.
1. Why do you blog/Why don't you blog?
2. Does communicating your feelings help you feel better? Or does it make you feel worse?
Thanks for reading
<3 Girl 1
P.S. Even if you're not a member of blogger you can comment! So don't be afraid to press the little button below. :)
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
The Verdict is: Failure
So you're probably sitting there in your chair. Looking at your computer. Asking yourself "Why the heck is she updating? She's supposed to be unplugged!!" My answer to that would be: "Yes. I was supposed to be. But, due to an unexpected couple of events, unplugged week was canceled..... for the time being."
Let me explain. Sunday was fine and dandy. Unplugged week was continuing on it's smooth course... well... kind of smooth. (Constant complaining from the 10 year old bro. about how unfair life is.. how we are never doing this again... how he HAS to play the xbox... ect. ect. and my quiet thoughts of how I just want to talk to my bff.. about a smooth as it could go I guess.) Then Monday morning came. The electricity was out. So I had to get ready. In the dark. And take a stupid standerdized test. Woo hoo! When I came home, the electricity was (you guessed it.) still out. So the parents rented a hotel for the night and Unplugged week was cancled. Obivously the electricity is back on... just in case you were wondering.
So how did the 1.5 days of no electronics go? Pretty well. I realized that it is (gasp) unneccesary to have my phone by me every second of the day. And that (although I feel the guilt) I don't HAVE to blog post every SINGLE day...
Just thought that I would let you in on the little happenings of my life. As usual.
-Girl 1. AKA Kathryn. AKA I have no idea where this blog is going anymore... it's a big ol' mess.
P.S. Is anyone out there? Is anyone even reading these posts? I sure hope so.
Let me explain. Sunday was fine and dandy. Unplugged week was continuing on it's smooth course... well... kind of smooth. (Constant complaining from the 10 year old bro. about how unfair life is.. how we are never doing this again... how he HAS to play the xbox... ect. ect. and my quiet thoughts of how I just want to talk to my bff.. about a smooth as it could go I guess.) Then Monday morning came. The electricity was out. So I had to get ready. In the dark. And take a stupid standerdized test. Woo hoo! When I came home, the electricity was (you guessed it.) still out. So the parents rented a hotel for the night and Unplugged week was cancled. Obivously the electricity is back on... just in case you were wondering.
So how did the 1.5 days of no electronics go? Pretty well. I realized that it is (gasp) unneccesary to have my phone by me every second of the day. And that (although I feel the guilt) I don't HAVE to blog post every SINGLE day...
Just thought that I would let you in on the little happenings of my life. As usual.
-Girl 1. AKA Kathryn. AKA I have no idea where this blog is going anymore... it's a big ol' mess.
P.S. Is anyone out there? Is anyone even reading these posts? I sure hope so.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Unplugged week
This week is unplugged week at my house. My family and I are "unplugging" and not playing any electronics (within reason) for the whole week. I just wanted to let you know so that you are not surprised when I am not posting for... well... a week!
So I will talk to you all later! Hopefully with a post about how wonderful this week was. And how much I grew as a person. :P Looking forward to it.
-Girl 1
So I will talk to you all later! Hopefully with a post about how wonderful this week was. And how much I grew as a person. :P Looking forward to it.
-Girl 1
Thursday, March 31, 2011
My first run...
Gah. Are all my posts going to be about exercising and weight loss and healthi-ness now? I sure hope not. In no offense to health nuts or foodies out there, but I hope other interesting things happen in my life. This is not a blog just specifically for my transition to a healthy lifestyle.
So anyways to the point. I took my first run (well, Girl 2 and I took our first run) yesterday. It was rough! I mean, I am so out of shape that it's not even funny! But hey you have to start somewhere right? Now I have that starting point and I'm going to try (that's all I can promise myself right?) to run farther the next time. Now, who knows when the next time is? Not today, that's for sure. (I have a piano lesson after school, and that was so down-right discouraging that I don't know if I would want to do it on a super consistant every-day basis!)
Also, there's one thing that bothers me about running -- out doors and in the gym. People are watching you. Like people from my school live on the streets that I ran by. What if they were looking out there windows? Goodness that would be a spectical. Oh, and don't forget about the little old ladies driving by in their cars. I'm sure they were not prepared for the sight they saw as turning the corner...
Questions
1. Do you run
2. Where (If you do)
3. What botthers you the most about it?
-Girl 1
So anyways to the point. I took my first run (well, Girl 2 and I took our first run) yesterday. It was rough! I mean, I am so out of shape that it's not even funny! But hey you have to start somewhere right? Now I have that starting point and I'm going to try (that's all I can promise myself right?) to run farther the next time. Now, who knows when the next time is? Not today, that's for sure. (I have a piano lesson after school, and that was so down-right discouraging that I don't know if I would want to do it on a super consistant every-day basis!)
Also, there's one thing that bothers me about running -- out doors and in the gym. People are watching you. Like people from my school live on the streets that I ran by. What if they were looking out there windows? Goodness that would be a spectical. Oh, and don't forget about the little old ladies driving by in their cars. I'm sure they were not prepared for the sight they saw as turning the corner...
Questions
1. Do you run
2. Where (If you do)
3. What botthers you the most about it?
-Girl 1
Monday, March 28, 2011
Saturday, March 26, 2011
The People at Wal-Mart make my day
Hey everyone!
I know that this is really random, but the greeters from Wal-Mart make my day every single time I go. For example, there is this guy named Zaki. He has (debatedly) the worst job in the world. But he is always smiling. He also waves at me every time that I go into the store. How encouraging is that? It always makes me feel special and valued (even though I'm sure that Wal-Mart could care less weather I shop there or not.)
This got me to thinking about how I could encourage others. I mean, I know first-hand that a smile can turn my day upside down, so why don't I smile to more people? Someone saying "hello" can sometimes make the difference between a good day and a bad one, so why don't I say "hello" to more people? How much of a difference could I make just by changing my attitude?
So some questions for you (as always :) )
a) Who encourages you the most?
b) What do you do to encourage others?
Thanks for reading!!
-Girl 1
I know that this is really random, but the greeters from Wal-Mart make my day every single time I go. For example, there is this guy named Zaki. He has (debatedly) the worst job in the world. But he is always smiling. He also waves at me every time that I go into the store. How encouraging is that? It always makes me feel special and valued (even though I'm sure that Wal-Mart could care less weather I shop there or not.)
This got me to thinking about how I could encourage others. I mean, I know first-hand that a smile can turn my day upside down, so why don't I smile to more people? Someone saying "hello" can sometimes make the difference between a good day and a bad one, so why don't I say "hello" to more people? How much of a difference could I make just by changing my attitude?
So some questions for you (as always :) )
a) Who encourages you the most?
b) What do you do to encourage others?
Thanks for reading!!
-Girl 1
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Dear 5:30 AM -- I think we need to take a break from this relationship
Hey blog readers! How is your week going? It's Wednesday -- we're halfway through! (I'm sure you can make it the other 2.5 days...)
Well, anyways, to the point of this blog post. I hate waking up early. Most days, I get to school wayyyy early (like, 7:00 usually) every day. This makes me wake up at 5:30 in the morning. Here is my breakdown of morning routines.
5:30-6:00 Read my Bible
6:00-6:15 Get dressed and do what little makeup I put on on a day-to-day basis
6:15-6:25 Pack a lunch and Eat breakfast
6:30-6:45 leave the house
I mean that's a lot of time spent getting ready. I know a lot of you will ask "well, why can't you just read your Bible later -- or not read it at all?" My answer to that is that reading my Bible is an important part of my life. I don't know HOW in the world I would survive without God by my side 100% of the time helping me through it. I can't read my Bible later because of the simple fact that it won't get done. I will procrastonate and procrastonate and eventually (as my head is hitting the pillow to go to sleep) I realize "oops, I forgot to read my Bible..... again." So to solve that issue I wake up an extra thirty minutes in the mornings and read. Yes it is a HUGE sacrifice. Yes, every morning as I'm dragging myself out of bed I doubt the importance of this and wish I could go back to sleep. But I can also say that yes, truthfully and honestly, those 30 mintues really do make my day (and my life for that matter) THAT much better.
So I guess my questions for you are
a) How much time does it take for you to get ready in the morning?
b) Do you do any wierd things in the morning that take up that time?
c) Are you a Christain, and if not, what religion are you. (I know that is a super wierd question, and if you don't want to answer, that's fine. But I like to know because I find religions interesting. So answer if you want to :) )
Thanks for reading (as always!)
Have a great rest-of-the week!
-Girl 1
Well, anyways, to the point of this blog post. I hate waking up early. Most days, I get to school wayyyy early (like, 7:00 usually) every day. This makes me wake up at 5:30 in the morning. Here is my breakdown of morning routines.
5:30-6:00 Read my Bible
6:00-6:15 Get dressed and do what little makeup I put on on a day-to-day basis
6:15-6:25 Pack a lunch and Eat breakfast
6:30-6:45 leave the house
I mean that's a lot of time spent getting ready. I know a lot of you will ask "well, why can't you just read your Bible later -- or not read it at all?" My answer to that is that reading my Bible is an important part of my life. I don't know HOW in the world I would survive without God by my side 100% of the time helping me through it. I can't read my Bible later because of the simple fact that it won't get done. I will procrastonate and procrastonate and eventually (as my head is hitting the pillow to go to sleep) I realize "oops, I forgot to read my Bible..... again." So to solve that issue I wake up an extra thirty minutes in the mornings and read. Yes it is a HUGE sacrifice. Yes, every morning as I'm dragging myself out of bed I doubt the importance of this and wish I could go back to sleep. But I can also say that yes, truthfully and honestly, those 30 mintues really do make my day (and my life for that matter) THAT much better.
So I guess my questions for you are
a) How much time does it take for you to get ready in the morning?
b) Do you do any wierd things in the morning that take up that time?
c) Are you a Christain, and if not, what religion are you. (I know that is a super wierd question, and if you don't want to answer, that's fine. But I like to know because I find religions interesting. So answer if you want to :) )
Thanks for reading (as always!)
Have a great rest-of-the week!
-Girl 1
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
The Change in my life
I was reading Fit Foodie Finds, one of the blogs I read on a regular basis. The specific post I was reading happened to be about change, and it inspired me to think about change in my life. I know that I like to change in some areas, but definitely not in others. For example, I love to change my blog layout. I love to change my desktop screen. I love to change my hair. I love to change the way my room is decorated.
But, on the other hand, I hate changing some things. I hate not talking to people that I used to be friends with. I hated changing schools. I hate drinking regular Coke (a change from my usual Diet Coke). I hate adding or taking away something from my schedule, or changing the time of things. I hate changing phones. I absolutely hate changing from wearing flip flops to tennis shoes in the winter time.
This brought me to think about why I like to change superficial things, but I don't like to change the more important things in my life, and I have yet to find an answer. I guess that since a lot of things in my life are constantly up in the air and chaotic. I like to have the important things nailed down so I don't to worry about them too. I guess the reason why I believe that I hate the change of important things is because I need stability in my life. I don't know about you, but life is hard enough to juggle around without changing too much at a time.
So a few questions for you (some taken from the Fit Foodie Finds blog post.)
1. Do you like to change (and what kind of change do you like)
2. Why do you think you like to change?
3. Why do you think that it is easier to change the superficial or non-important things in life compared to changing the important things?
Thanks for reading!
<3- Girl 1
But, on the other hand, I hate changing some things. I hate not talking to people that I used to be friends with. I hated changing schools. I hate drinking regular Coke (a change from my usual Diet Coke). I hate adding or taking away something from my schedule, or changing the time of things. I hate changing phones. I absolutely hate changing from wearing flip flops to tennis shoes in the winter time.
This brought me to think about why I like to change superficial things, but I don't like to change the more important things in my life, and I have yet to find an answer. I guess that since a lot of things in my life are constantly up in the air and chaotic. I like to have the important things nailed down so I don't to worry about them too. I guess the reason why I believe that I hate the change of important things is because I need stability in my life. I don't know about you, but life is hard enough to juggle around without changing too much at a time.
So a few questions for you (some taken from the Fit Foodie Finds blog post.)
1. Do you like to change (and what kind of change do you like)
2. Why do you think you like to change?
3. Why do you think that it is easier to change the superficial or non-important things in life compared to changing the important things?
Thanks for reading!
<3- Girl 1
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Tumblr
I am officially on Tubmlr. NO WORRIES I'm still gonna be here too!! But just in case you want to check me out there the link is http://thechroniclesofkathryn.tumblr.com/ . If you don't and you just want to stay her in your comfy cozy blogger chair, then that's cool with me too :)
-Girl 1
-Girl 1
The Girl Code
Okay so I was talking with a friend and we were discussing the girl code... You know that unspoken code that you just KNOW you have to follow... and how nobody has officially written it down, and why not. So I decided that I was going to write the top 5 girl code rules (in my opinion...) and see what you guys thought.
1. If your friend has cried over a guy -- do not date him without her permission.
2. If your friend has dated a guy, don't date him without permission
3. If your friend has loved a guy -- never, under any circumstances, date him. (I believe that if you have ever loved a guy, that a teensy tiny part of you will always love him. Therefore if your friend dates him, a teensy tiny part of you will be jelous. Therefore you and your friend could have difficulties. No one wants that to happen!!!)
4. If your friend disapproves of the guy -- dump him. (Friends are way more important.)
5. If your friend likes a guy -- don't date him without permission.
Okay so those are my top five. Let me know of you're top girl-code-rules. I might add them in an edit later on :o ... Then you would be famous (well.. only sort of...)
Thanks for reading!
-Girl 1
1. If your friend has cried over a guy -- do not date him without her permission.
2. If your friend has dated a guy, don't date him without permission
3. If your friend has loved a guy -- never, under any circumstances, date him. (I believe that if you have ever loved a guy, that a teensy tiny part of you will always love him. Therefore if your friend dates him, a teensy tiny part of you will be jelous. Therefore you and your friend could have difficulties. No one wants that to happen!!!)
4. If your friend disapproves of the guy -- dump him. (Friends are way more important.)
5. If your friend likes a guy -- don't date him without permission.
Okay so those are my top five. Let me know of you're top girl-code-rules. I might add them in an edit later on :o ... Then you would be famous (well.. only sort of...)
Thanks for reading!
-Girl 1
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Rambling on Writings
Hi blog readers.... (one person still?!?!) So now I'm going to publish my seriously depressing/deep poems/writings/stories that I hope to become famous on (haha yea right!)
1. You never thnk that you love someone until something takes them away. Then you are filled with a painfulhole in your heart, and all you can ever think about is how things used to be.
2. The spinning vortex of lies and deception. sucking me in with caring, sharing, pretending. Spit me out with insults, avoidence, and pain. so this is how friends treat each other? The spinning vortex. Lies, Deception, and. Finally. Nothing.
3. (Beware before reading, this one is kinda long!)
AS she dressed for the day in her typical attire of jeans, a t-shirt, and some tennis shoes, Breesa wondered if today would be the day someone finally cared enough to talk to her. Sure, people spoke to her.It wasn't about that. it was that usually no one asked about her. It was all about them and their life.
"Come on, Bree," her mother yelled. "you're going to miss the bus!" Of course Breesa thought as she rolled her eyes.
"Did you eat breakfast?" asked her mother. Breesa nodded. Truth was she never ate. Nothing tasted good to her anym ore, and plus eating caused you to gain weight and Breesa didn't need any help in that department. She grapped her i-pod and headed out the door.
She walked to the bus stop and stood amongst the kids in their own groups. All except her of course. This is what the i-pod was for. To block herself from thinking of the world around her.
"Hi, Bree." Her thoughts were interupted by Lori, the closest thing she had to a friend.
"Hello," Breesa said.
As she returned to her music, Breesa thought how much of a jerk she was. Oh well, better to be the jerk then the victum.
"Are you going to Kelsie's party?" There it was, that same voice again.
"No. Wasn't invited." Breesa focused on staring ahead and taking deep breaths. Focus she thought. Tears are the enemy.
"Oh," Lori replied sullenly. The regret and akward feeling of not knowing what to say was obvious on her face and the fact that she walked away abruptly with no goodbye.
She doesn't know the pain she's causing. Plus, it's better she goes away. She won't find the good companion she's looking for here. Breesa thought as the bus rolled into the stop and she borded and sat into her usually spot. Alone, with only the music to comfort her.
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So I hope you guys liked it. If not that's cool too, just click the "you suck" button down below and move along with your life :) Just kidding. You can stay if you want!
Anyways, positive and negative feedback would be greatly appreciated.
-Girl 1
P.S. These were written at a very dark time in my life. I'm out in the sunshine now, so don't worry about me :)
1. You never thnk that you love someone until something takes them away. Then you are filled with a painfulhole in your heart, and all you can ever think about is how things used to be.
2. The spinning vortex of lies and deception. sucking me in with caring, sharing, pretending. Spit me out with insults, avoidence, and pain. so this is how friends treat each other? The spinning vortex. Lies, Deception, and. Finally. Nothing.
3. (Beware before reading, this one is kinda long!)
AS she dressed for the day in her typical attire of jeans, a t-shirt, and some tennis shoes, Breesa wondered if today would be the day someone finally cared enough to talk to her. Sure, people spoke to her.It wasn't about that. it was that usually no one asked about her. It was all about them and their life.
"Come on, Bree," her mother yelled. "you're going to miss the bus!" Of course Breesa thought as she rolled her eyes.
"Did you eat breakfast?" asked her mother. Breesa nodded. Truth was she never ate. Nothing tasted good to her anym ore, and plus eating caused you to gain weight and Breesa didn't need any help in that department. She grapped her i-pod and headed out the door.
She walked to the bus stop and stood amongst the kids in their own groups. All except her of course. This is what the i-pod was for. To block herself from thinking of the world around her.
"Hi, Bree." Her thoughts were interupted by Lori, the closest thing she had to a friend.
"Hello," Breesa said.
As she returned to her music, Breesa thought how much of a jerk she was. Oh well, better to be the jerk then the victum.
"Are you going to Kelsie's party?" There it was, that same voice again.
"No. Wasn't invited." Breesa focused on staring ahead and taking deep breaths. Focus she thought. Tears are the enemy.
"Oh," Lori replied sullenly. The regret and akward feeling of not knowing what to say was obvious on her face and the fact that she walked away abruptly with no goodbye.
She doesn't know the pain she's causing. Plus, it's better she goes away. She won't find the good companion she's looking for here. Breesa thought as the bus rolled into the stop and she borded and sat into her usually spot. Alone, with only the music to comfort her.
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So I hope you guys liked it. If not that's cool too, just click the "you suck" button down below and move along with your life :) Just kidding. You can stay if you want!
Anyways, positive and negative feedback would be greatly appreciated.
-Girl 1
P.S. These were written at a very dark time in my life. I'm out in the sunshine now, so don't worry about me :)
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