12:02 AM (the morning of 6.28.11)
Dear journal,
Nothing interesting really going on today. Thomas and I walked to Braum's [An ice cream shop close to us. The best ice cream I've ever had. Check out the website here] and Famous Dogs. [Famous dogs is a local hot dog stand. 99 cents for the best hot dog ever. Braum's ad Famous Dogs are within walking distance from our house.] That's pretty much. Tomorrow is our last (full) day before our trip. [Every year since I can remember my brother and I travel to Iowa to be with my grandparents for about a month. We are staying for 6 weeks this time because of the fact that it might be my last year. Next year I would like to try and get a job or try and intern at a camp, which would further limit the dates we could go up there.] I'm excited to go, get away, take a break from Texas. The lake is calling my name. [Did I mention my grandparents live on a lake?]
<3- Kathryn
P.S. Maybe I need to get a new time to write? I always seem so tired right before bed.
[That's all for today. I'm not sure how much I'll be able to post the next couple of days since we will be driving. But as always as soon as I get a chance I will update you on my doings. Thanks for reading you guys :)
XOXO- Kathryn]
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Day 12
[Day 12 of my amazing adventure.]
6.27.11 9:46 AM
God Girl Devotional, Day 3. [This is a book that my parents bought me for christmas. It's a devotional. I would strongly suggest to buy it. It was a great gift for me. Click here if you're interested :) ]
S) Enoch walked with God, then he was gone because God took him. Genesis 5:4
O) Because Enoch had such a close relationship with God, he didn't have to die. He just ascended. Example to follow.
A) My relationship with God should be the number one priority in my life. Not my blog, [sorry guys] facebook, friends, or anything else.
P) Dear God,
I want to be focused on you all the time. Please help me to be that way. Amen
One 19 Revolution, Day 1 [This is something I learned about at camp. Psalms 119 has 24 stanzas, all divided up into 8 verses each. The challenge is to read one stanza a day and pick one verse to use the SOAP method on. Click here for the facebook page.]
S) Happy are those who keep His decrees and seek Him with all their heart. Psalms 119:2
O) If you keep God's word, you will be happy. This is a promise to keep.
A) Keep God's word. Seek Him with all my heart.
P) Dear jesus,
Help me to follow you. Help me to seek you with all my heart. I love you. Amen
Our Daily Bread [This is a free devotional book I get every 3 months. It is free to receive. It has a devotional for every day, and it also says what chapters to read if you are going through the Bible in a Year. Click here to order online.]
S) God had mercy on Him, and not only on Him, but also on me, so that I would not have one grief on top of another. Philippians 2:27
O) God will not give you more than you can handle. Trust Him even through the storms of life to help you with the burdens He has given you.
A) Pray. The only person who can really help you with death is God. He did not give you something you could not handle.
P) Dear God,
Please help me get through this. You are my only strength. Help me hold close to you. Amen.
Music
1. Light makes a way, Remedy Drive
3. Instincts, Ivoryline
5. Back to the Basics, Run Kid Run
8. Good Morning Planetarium, Falling Up
[Thanks for reading guys! My journal post will (again) be in a separate post.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.27.11 9:46 AM
God Girl Devotional, Day 3. [This is a book that my parents bought me for christmas. It's a devotional. I would strongly suggest to buy it. It was a great gift for me. Click here if you're interested :) ]
S) Enoch walked with God, then he was gone because God took him. Genesis 5:4
O) Because Enoch had such a close relationship with God, he didn't have to die. He just ascended. Example to follow.
A) My relationship with God should be the number one priority in my life. Not my blog, [sorry guys] facebook, friends, or anything else.
P) Dear God,
I want to be focused on you all the time. Please help me to be that way. Amen
One 19 Revolution, Day 1 [This is something I learned about at camp. Psalms 119 has 24 stanzas, all divided up into 8 verses each. The challenge is to read one stanza a day and pick one verse to use the SOAP method on. Click here for the facebook page.]
S) Happy are those who keep His decrees and seek Him with all their heart. Psalms 119:2
O) If you keep God's word, you will be happy. This is a promise to keep.
A) Keep God's word. Seek Him with all my heart.
P) Dear jesus,
Help me to follow you. Help me to seek you with all my heart. I love you. Amen
Our Daily Bread [This is a free devotional book I get every 3 months. It is free to receive. It has a devotional for every day, and it also says what chapters to read if you are going through the Bible in a Year. Click here to order online.]
S) God had mercy on Him, and not only on Him, but also on me, so that I would not have one grief on top of another. Philippians 2:27
O) God will not give you more than you can handle. Trust Him even through the storms of life to help you with the burdens He has given you.
A) Pray. The only person who can really help you with death is God. He did not give you something you could not handle.
P) Dear God,
Please help me get through this. You are my only strength. Help me hold close to you. Amen.
Music
1. Light makes a way, Remedy Drive
- Light makes a way through the darkness.
3. Instincts, Ivoryline
- Instincts can not keep me from sin. Only God's help can. [P.S. I REALLY like this song :) Listen to it!!! It is also available on Playlist, a website where you can build your own set of songs.]
5. Back to the Basics, Run Kid Run
- The Bible should be the first place we go to. Especially in the hard times.
- When caught in a pattern of sin, go back to the Bible for advice.
- God only wants us to give ourselves to Him. Good, bad, ugly, everything. He will take care of the rest. [Another really good song..]
8. Good Morning Planetarium, Falling Up
[Thanks for reading guys! My journal post will (again) be in a separate post.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Monday, June 27, 2011
Day 11 (continued)
[This is the journal entry for the 11th day of my amazing adventure]
11:47 PM
Dear journal,
Today was a l-o-n-g day. It was the first Sunday without Pastor Tommy. Overall I handled it well though. I think. I cried the most during small group when I talked about how P.T. [Pastor Tommy] chose Dad's table. [My dad was the leader of a table at Men's Breakfast, and the Pastor chose to be at his table.] Then later on we went to church to visit with Rita, Joy, Julie, and Johnathon. Then I started crying mostly because mom started crying, and she's one of the least emotional people I know. Then we talked to Mrs. Tammy. I told her about how I felt like I had been called to ministry. [Let me explain. At camp I realized that I think God has been speaking to me and trying to call me to do something. I don't know if that means preschool, children, or music minister, or if it means being a missionary. Bu honestly I'm just trying to pray and take things one step at a time.] We cried. At home I asked Brendan* to pray for me, and he was actually really comforting. he mentioned how God moves in mysterious ways, and how I shouldn't lose m faith. I never thought there would be a day when I sought spiritual advice from him. Oh, and I also asked about his spiritual life and he said it's going well. Even though I probably had nothing to do with it, I feel like I planted/watered/weeded the plant, and that makes me feel good. Well I am going to seep. I am one tired girl.
<3- K
11:47 PM
Dear journal,
Today was a l-o-n-g day. It was the first Sunday without Pastor Tommy. Overall I handled it well though. I think. I cried the most during small group when I talked about how P.T. [Pastor Tommy] chose Dad's table. [My dad was the leader of a table at Men's Breakfast, and the Pastor chose to be at his table.] Then later on we went to church to visit with Rita, Joy, Julie, and Johnathon. Then I started crying mostly because mom started crying, and she's one of the least emotional people I know. Then we talked to Mrs. Tammy. I told her about how I felt like I had been called to ministry. [Let me explain. At camp I realized that I think God has been speaking to me and trying to call me to do something. I don't know if that means preschool, children, or music minister, or if it means being a missionary. Bu honestly I'm just trying to pray and take things one step at a time.] We cried. At home I asked Brendan* to pray for me, and he was actually really comforting. he mentioned how God moves in mysterious ways, and how I shouldn't lose m faith. I never thought there would be a day when I sought spiritual advice from him. Oh, and I also asked about his spiritual life and he said it's going well. Even though I probably had nothing to do with it, I feel like I planted/watered/weeded the plant, and that makes me feel good. Well I am going to seep. I am one tired girl.
<3- K
Day 11
[Day 11 of my Fantastical journey]
6.26.11 7:11 AM
Devotional
S) The man answered, "That woman, the one you gave me, gave me some fruit from the tree and I ate it." Then the Lord God asked the woman "What have you done?" "The snake deceived me, and I ate," the woman answered. Genesis 3:12-13
O) Man blamed woman, woman blamed snake. No one was responsible for their sin. God wants me to take responsibility for my actions (good and bad) instead of blaming others. Sin to confess- blame. Attitude I need to change. Example of what not to do with Adam and Eve.
A) When I sin, instead of thinking of a way that it could be someone else's fault, take responsibility for my actions and realize I'm the one who made the wrong choice.
P) Dear God,
Help me to realize that my sin is my fault, no one else's.
[Next is the music I listened to during this devotional. Enjoy!!!]
1. Reaching, Leeland
2. Everybody Praise the Lord, Lincoln Brewster
3. Shepherd, Ian Eskelin [Unfortunately I couldn't find a video for this one...]
4. I Will Never Be the Same, the Benjamin Gate [Note: This is not a Youtube Video. This is a grooveshark track :) ]
5. This is Home, Switchfoot
8. Before There Was Time - Caedman's Call
9. Pieces, RED
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.26.11 7:11 AM
Devotional
S) The man answered, "That woman, the one you gave me, gave me some fruit from the tree and I ate it." Then the Lord God asked the woman "What have you done?" "The snake deceived me, and I ate," the woman answered. Genesis 3:12-13
O) Man blamed woman, woman blamed snake. No one was responsible for their sin. God wants me to take responsibility for my actions (good and bad) instead of blaming others. Sin to confess- blame. Attitude I need to change. Example of what not to do with Adam and Eve.
A) When I sin, instead of thinking of a way that it could be someone else's fault, take responsibility for my actions and realize I'm the one who made the wrong choice.
P) Dear God,
Help me to realize that my sin is my fault, no one else's.
[Next is the music I listened to during this devotional. Enjoy!!!]
1. Reaching, Leeland
2. Everybody Praise the Lord, Lincoln Brewster
3. Shepherd, Ian Eskelin [Unfortunately I couldn't find a video for this one...]
4. I Will Never Be the Same, the Benjamin Gate [Note: This is not a Youtube Video. This is a grooveshark track :) ]
5. This is Home, Switchfoot
- Listen to what God is calling you to do. Even if it is different from what you planned for your life. What he calls you to do will bring you such joy and it will become your home
- There's none like you, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. My strength, my song, Hallelujah, Hallelujah. [These lyrics just really spoke to me I guess. Because I wrote them down.]
8. Before There Was Time - Caedman's Call
9. Pieces, RED
- God wants you to come to Him in pieces so He can work out your flaws. The only other solution is to try and piece yourself back together and that never really works out very well.
- Thank you Lord that you know my name that you look at me and everyone as the same. our love is strong, and it never changes.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Day 10
[I'm going to start including my devotionals in my posts because I have a new method of doing them (: Enjoy!!!]
6.25.11 8:26 AM
Devotional:
S) [scripture] The man and his wife... hid from the Lord God among the trees in the garden. The Lord God called to man and asked him, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden. I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid." Genesis 3:8-10
O) [Observation.] Adam and Eve hid because they were afraid of God. Do not be afraid when you sin, confess. This is an example of what NOT to do.
A) [Application.] Stop wallowing in my sin because I'm afraid of what God is going to do to me. Instead, confess so I can be forgiven.
P) [Prayer] Dear God,
Help me not to be afraid of you, and to claim your promise of loving me no matter what. Help me to confess my sin right away instead of a long time after the fact.
10:03 PM
Dear journal,
Today was Wendi's wedding. On the way to the wedding my mom, dad, and I (Thomas [my brother] was at a friend's) heard a song called Blessings. [click here to listen] It was a cry fest in the car. The wedding was good, but I got so sunburned. (More sunburned then I was at camp!) not much to say. I'm about to go to bed and prepare for a big day tomorrow.
<3- Kathryn
[For anyone who's interested: my devotional method is now the SOAP method as you can see. Please feel free to comment or email me here if you would like more information about how to cary this method out.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.25.11 8:26 AM
Devotional:
S) [scripture] The man and his wife... hid from the Lord God among the trees in the garden. The Lord God called to man and asked him, "Where are you?" He answered, "I heard you in the garden. I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid." Genesis 3:8-10
O) [Observation.] Adam and Eve hid because they were afraid of God. Do not be afraid when you sin, confess. This is an example of what NOT to do.
A) [Application.] Stop wallowing in my sin because I'm afraid of what God is going to do to me. Instead, confess so I can be forgiven.
P) [Prayer] Dear God,
Help me not to be afraid of you, and to claim your promise of loving me no matter what. Help me to confess my sin right away instead of a long time after the fact.
10:03 PM
Dear journal,
Today was Wendi's wedding. On the way to the wedding my mom, dad, and I (Thomas [my brother] was at a friend's) heard a song called Blessings. [click here to listen] It was a cry fest in the car. The wedding was good, but I got so sunburned. (More sunburned then I was at camp!) not much to say. I'm about to go to bed and prepare for a big day tomorrow.
<3- Kathryn
[For anyone who's interested: my devotional method is now the SOAP method as you can see. Please feel free to comment or email me here if you would like more information about how to cary this method out.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Day 9
[Day 9 of my journey.]
6.24.11 9:42 PM
Dear journal,
So today we finally came home. It was so god to see my family and hug their necks. Everyone is handling P.T.'s [Pastor Tommy] death so well. Thomas [My brother] doesn't really understand what's going on, so he's not really sad. My parents are just in "survival mode" as they say. They're busy taking care of work and home and everyone else in their life. And then there's me. Often times I want to sit alone and think. Just listen in the wind. The rest of the time I want to talk about it with someone, which is really inconvenient since my friends aren't very talkative. I guess there's not that much to say. Today has been better. My emotions have been almost non-existant instead of up and down like a roller coaster. I guess that's good.
<3- Kathryn
Day 8
[Day 8 of my adventure. And one of the hardest days of my life so far.]
6.23.11/6.24.11 12:17 AM
Dear journal,
Today has been crazy! So first of all Pastor Tommy died. [Pastor Tommy has been my pastor since I can remember. He has really mentored my parents and was the one who dedicated and baptized my brother. He has done great at leading our church in the 13 years he served us.] He was in Israel and he had a heart attack. It was really difficult for me at first when I heard about it. I was mad, angry, and bitter at God. I didn't (and still don't really) understand why. Why him? why to OUR church? Why now, right at the end of camp? I was also crying. I literally sat in the Prayer Garden and cried for an hour and a half. It was insane. I couldn't even sit in morning worship because it was too fresh on my brain. But then I went to a breakout session, lunch, rec, ect. ect. and I kind of cheered up. Probably mostly from not thinking about it, but not thinking is better then bawling. So then came evening worship. It was amazing as always. I was really touched when we sang "It Is Well." [Another AMAZING worship song. Click here to check it out.] I really finally gave up the situation to God and realized that I couldn't just stop my life. That's exactly what Satan would want me to do. Instead I realized that this is God's plan. SO although it is okay to cry and morn, I need to get off my booty, raise God, and tell people about Him. After worship, Mike K. (The Pastor at camp) spoke, and of course he mentioned P.T. [Pastor Tommy] It made everyone start crying all over again. Even *Lance and *Drake. So right then I pulled on my "mommy" pants and started comforting them. I felt like I did a good job, but I'm not sure since Lance has been avoiding me. Probably because of my crazy emotional state. So my biggest worries about this whole thing is going back home. I have no idea how my family is dealing with this. Sunday in particular is going to be especially rough. [Actually today was better then I had expected it to be.] I'm also worried as I go to Iowa that I'm going to grow apart from Christ. I guess I should just grasp to the promise that this is all in God's hands. He's in control, and as long as that's true I'm alright.
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[Hey blog readers. Thursday was a really hard day for me. As said above I really questioned God and my faith. I am okay now though. I would ask for you guys to pray for my church family and I as we pray for God's wisdom and figure out how he wants us to handle this situation. I would also ask that if you need to talk about anything that you send me an email here. I would love to talk to anyone about their faith.
XOXO- Kathryn]
6.23.11/6.24.11 12:17 AM
Dear journal,
Today has been crazy! So first of all Pastor Tommy died. [Pastor Tommy has been my pastor since I can remember. He has really mentored my parents and was the one who dedicated and baptized my brother. He has done great at leading our church in the 13 years he served us.] He was in Israel and he had a heart attack. It was really difficult for me at first when I heard about it. I was mad, angry, and bitter at God. I didn't (and still don't really) understand why. Why him? why to OUR church? Why now, right at the end of camp? I was also crying. I literally sat in the Prayer Garden and cried for an hour and a half. It was insane. I couldn't even sit in morning worship because it was too fresh on my brain. But then I went to a breakout session, lunch, rec, ect. ect. and I kind of cheered up. Probably mostly from not thinking about it, but not thinking is better then bawling. So then came evening worship. It was amazing as always. I was really touched when we sang "It Is Well." [Another AMAZING worship song. Click here to check it out.] I really finally gave up the situation to God and realized that I couldn't just stop my life. That's exactly what Satan would want me to do. Instead I realized that this is God's plan. SO although it is okay to cry and morn, I need to get off my booty, raise God, and tell people about Him. After worship, Mike K. (The Pastor at camp) spoke, and of course he mentioned P.T. [Pastor Tommy] It made everyone start crying all over again. Even *Lance and *Drake. So right then I pulled on my "mommy" pants and started comforting them. I felt like I did a good job, but I'm not sure since Lance has been avoiding me. Probably because of my crazy emotional state. So my biggest worries about this whole thing is going back home. I have no idea how my family is dealing with this. Sunday in particular is going to be especially rough. [Actually today was better then I had expected it to be.] I'm also worried as I go to Iowa that I'm going to grow apart from Christ. I guess I should just grasp to the promise that this is all in God's hands. He's in control, and as long as that's true I'm alright.
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[Hey blog readers. Thursday was a really hard day for me. As said above I really questioned God and my faith. I am okay now though. I would ask for you guys to pray for my church family and I as we pray for God's wisdom and figure out how he wants us to handle this situation. I would also ask that if you need to talk about anything that you send me an email here. I would love to talk to anyone about their faith.
XOXO- Kathryn]
Day 7
[Day 7 of my adventure <3 3rd day of camp!!]
6.22.11 12:23 AM (Okay, so technically 6.23.11, but whatevs.)
So.. camp. First of all Lance* sat by me in both worship times. [At camp we had two worship experiences, one in the morning and one at night.] Yay? We've also been talking lots and just growing closer as friends. But it is frustrating that he flirts with Betsy*, even when I'm right there. But if we're just friends I have to be okay with that, right? Okay so now onto more spiritual things. First of all, I love worship. It is amazing. (Plus- Lance sings like an angel. I could see us being that couple who always sings in harmony... anyways...) I really feel like God has been speaking to me this week.
Second of all, family group. We have really grown way close over the past 3 days, and I love it. We all share with each other and are trusting each other to keep us accountable. We talked for like an hour Afr evening worship, and I loved it.
Third of all. Evening worship. Tonight's music was great. My favorite was "Jesus Paid it All." [LOVE that song. Here's a link to it if you have never heard this song before.] Specifically it just really spoke to me.
Also, tonight was "renew-your-faith" night, and I made a decision. I decided that I was going to love me for me. I'm through hating myself and constantly putting myself down. It causes me too much needless pain- and God loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful thing He's ever seen. He created me perfectly. What right do I have to take down the value of myself? so that's all for tonight/this morning.
TTYL
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[* Names changed for anonymity.]
6.22.11 12:23 AM (Okay, so technically 6.23.11, but whatevs.)
So.. camp. First of all Lance* sat by me in both worship times. [At camp we had two worship experiences, one in the morning and one at night.] Yay? We've also been talking lots and just growing closer as friends. But it is frustrating that he flirts with Betsy*, even when I'm right there. But if we're just friends I have to be okay with that, right? Okay so now onto more spiritual things. First of all, I love worship. It is amazing. (Plus- Lance sings like an angel. I could see us being that couple who always sings in harmony... anyways...) I really feel like God has been speaking to me this week.
Second of all, family group. We have really grown way close over the past 3 days, and I love it. We all share with each other and are trusting each other to keep us accountable. We talked for like an hour Afr evening worship, and I loved it.
Third of all. Evening worship. Tonight's music was great. My favorite was "Jesus Paid it All." [LOVE that song. Here's a link to it if you have never heard this song before.] Specifically it just really spoke to me.
Also, tonight was "renew-your-faith" night, and I made a decision. I decided that I was going to love me for me. I'm through hating myself and constantly putting myself down. It causes me too much needless pain- and God loves me and thinks I'm the most beautiful thing He's ever seen. He created me perfectly. What right do I have to take down the value of myself? so that's all for tonight/this morning.
TTYL
<3- Kathryn L. Tune
[* Names changed for anonymity.]
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 6
[Day 6 of my adventure.]
6.21.11 10:57 PM
Dear journal,
So I'm sitting on my bed (again) writing (again). Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I L.O.V.E. my family group; they are amazing and so supportive. Lance*, Mikayla, Kourtni, and I made the "Fab (non-dramatic) five." And Lance and I held hands. <3 And during the [worship] service we touched legs. <3 (And yes, most of the time I was focused on God. Most of the time.) But his voice is hot. Like REALLY hot. [Can you tell I use a combination of capital letters and periods when I'm excited??] Again, I was focused on God. There were just... moments. And he said he loved me. Well... us (as in the Fab Five). But still, we have to start somewhere.
Oh and today I got So. Mad. because of all the crap that's going on. Like people were saying that *Cody Griffen's mom was in jail. RUMOR! And I'm just getting soooo mad about the same old same old church crap that goes on. UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! So... I just pray God takes away all distractions... at least during small group/Worship.
<3- Kathryn
[*names changed for anonymity]
6.21.11 10:57 PM
Dear journal,
So I'm sitting on my bed (again) writing (again). Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I L.O.V.E. my family group; they are amazing and so supportive. Lance*, Mikayla, Kourtni, and I made the "Fab (non-dramatic) five." And Lance and I held hands. <3 And during the [worship] service we touched legs. <3 (And yes, most of the time I was focused on God. Most of the time.) But his voice is hot. Like REALLY hot. [Can you tell I use a combination of capital letters and periods when I'm excited??] Again, I was focused on God. There were just... moments. And he said he loved me. Well... us (as in the Fab Five). But still, we have to start somewhere.
Oh and today I got So. Mad. because of all the crap that's going on. Like people were saying that *Cody Griffen's mom was in jail. RUMOR! And I'm just getting soooo mad about the same old same old church crap that goes on. UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! So... I just pray God takes away all distractions... at least during small group/Worship.
<3- Kathryn
[*names changed for anonymity]
Day 5
[First Day of camp, here we go!]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
Day 4
[Dear Blog followers: Thanks for sticking with me the past 5 days as I was at camp. I'm going to be posting all of the journal posts one right after another, so check them out if you want.]
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Day 3
[This is day 3 of my 30 day adventure. Also: things not said in my journal will be in these square things because I've found that occasionally I actually use parenthesis in my journaling.... Which made writing 'out-of-character' difficult.]
Day 3. 4.16.11 8:44 PM
Dear journal,
here's my daily check in! No Omegle -- I'm almost there! Safe! [Gosh. When am I going to stop mentioning this all the time??] Today my father gave us a long list of things to do tomorrow and I'm kind of stressed out about it. But I just have to know that if I breathe, stay calm, and work I can get it done.It's when I panic that things go wrong. I also created a bucket list! (Check it out!) I guess that yes, I am a bit young but if I start thinking now then I have longer to get it done. I was inspired because I'm watching Eat, Pray Love. And it's turning into my favorite movie ever. I decided that I want to be fearless in life. I want to take calculated risks and L.I.V.E I know that my "dream job" is an elementary school teacher, but what if I didn't have a desk job? What if I was a writer and people paid me to do my bucket list and write about it. [Having a job writing about anything would be fun... actually.] (P.S. not to self: write about experiences) I think that might be pretty amazing. (Except if I had a family... but you know...)
I also meditated. (Another Eat, Pray, Love inspiration.) [Goodness gracious I'm obsessed with this movie!!!] Not the Hindu kind. The Christian kind. But it was still amazing. Like I can't even describe it amazing. So now on to the crappy part of my day. Kayleigh*. We're still fighting. Sometimes I just feel like I should check out. Stop trying to fix the so-far-gone-down-the-drain relationships. [P.S.if you're reading this... sorry] Gah. I feel like we're in a frekin' marriage and I want to get a divorce, but she won't sign the papers! [Except for we're both girls. So totally not happening.] I wish I could run away to Italy. More good news -- my party is tomorrow. I'm so excited to just hang out and relax with my girls. So on to my devotional.
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
Thursday, June 16, 2011
My Bucket List
I hope you guys enjoy this. Please comment if you have any ideas for something for me to add. (P.S. I know I have kissing in France/Paris on there twice. I'm working on fixing that. Oh: and when I add items to my list I'll add them here too. :P )
Bucket List
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
There we go. Again, comment if you have any ideas for items for me to add to this list. Hopefully I can get to work on achieving some of these goals ASAP. Oh, and also, if you have a bucket list, please share a link to where I can see it!! (or just post it in the comments...)
Love you guys! Thanks so much for reading you guys make my day (especially when I see 16 views in 1 hour?? I know that's not much for pro-bloggers, but for the dust-on-the-ground bloggers (like me!!!) that's a lot.)
XOXO - Kathryn
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
Day Two
(Here is Day 2 of my 30 day adventure. Just a reminder, all Out of text notes will be in parenthesis)
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day One
(Okay guys so I'm going to post what I write in my journal.... with some editing of course on here.. if I have extra comments I'll write them in parentheses so you know...)
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
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