Rambling on Writings

Hi blog readers.... (one person  still?!?!) So now I'm going to publish my seriously depressing/deep poems/writings/stories that I hope to become famous on (haha yea right!)

1. You never thnk that you love someone until something takes them away. Then you are filled with a painfulhole in your heart, and all you can ever think about is how things used to be.

2. The spinning vortex of lies and deception. sucking me in with caring, sharing, pretending. Spit me out with insults, avoidence, and pain. so this is how friends treat each other? The spinning vortex. Lies, Deception, and. Finally. Nothing.

3. (Beware before reading, this one is kinda long!)

AS she dressed for the day in her typical attire of jeans, a t-shirt, and some tennis shoes, Breesa wondered if today would be the day someone finally cared enough to talk to her. Sure, people spoke to her.It wasn't about that. it was that usually no one asked about her. It was all about them and their life.
"Come on, Bree," her mother yelled. "you're going to miss the bus!" Of course Breesa thought as she rolled her eyes.
"Did you eat breakfast?" asked her mother. Breesa nodded. Truth was she never ate. Nothing tasted good to her anym ore, and plus eating caused you to gain weight and Breesa didn't need any help in that department. She grapped her i-pod and headed out the door.
She walked to the bus stop and stood amongst the kids in their own groups. All except her of course. This is what the i-pod was for. To block herself from thinking of the world around her.
"Hi, Bree." Her thoughts were interupted by Lori, the closest thing she had to a friend.
"Hello," Breesa said.
As she returned to her music, Breesa thought how much of a jerk she was. Oh well, better to be the jerk then the victum.
"Are you going to Kelsie's party?" There it was, that same voice again.
"No. Wasn't invited." Breesa focused on staring ahead and taking deep breaths. Focus she thought. Tears are the enemy.
"Oh," Lori replied sullenly. The regret and akward feeling of not knowing what to say was obvious on her face and the fact that she walked away abruptly with no goodbye.
She doesn't know the pain she's causing. Plus, it's better she goes away. She won't find the good companion she's looking for here. Breesa thought as the bus rolled into the stop and she borded and sat into her usually spot. Alone, with only the music to comfort her.

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So I hope you guys liked it. If not that's cool too, just click the "you suck" button down below and move along with your life :) Just kidding. You can stay if you want!

Anyways, positive and negative feedback would be greatly appreciated.

-Girl 1
P.S. These were written at a very dark time in my life. I'm out in the sunshine now, so don't worry about me :)