[Day 6 of my adventure.]
6.21.11 10:57 PM
Dear journal,
So I'm sitting on my bed (again) writing (again). Today was A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I L.O.V.E. my family group; they are amazing and so supportive. Lance*, Mikayla, Kourtni, and I made the "Fab (non-dramatic) five." And Lance and I held hands. <3 And during the [worship] service we touched legs. <3 (And yes, most of the time I was focused on God. Most of the time.) But his voice is hot. Like REALLY hot. [Can you tell I use a combination of capital letters and periods when I'm excited??] Again, I was focused on God. There were just... moments. And he said he loved me. Well... us (as in the Fab Five). But still, we have to start somewhere.
Oh and today I got So. Mad. because of all the crap that's going on. Like people were saying that *Cody Griffen's mom was in jail. RUMOR! And I'm just getting soooo mad about the same old same old church crap that goes on. UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! So... I just pray God takes away all distractions... at least during small group/Worship.
<3- Kathryn
[*names changed for anonymity]
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Day 5
[First Day of camp, here we go!]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
6.20.11 8:53 am
Dear journal,
so I am sitting on the bus on the way to camp. I am sitting next to Monica and we are coloring. I was about to try and sleep (because I didn't sleep well last night.) but then I remembered I was supposed to be writing in you. So now I am. There's not really much to say though, so I'm going to try and sleep.
11: 24 PM
So right now I am sitting on my bunk bed about to go to sleep. Today has been a pretty eventful day.
a) family group. MIne really rocks this year and it is SO. EXCITING. Even Matthew* is opening up. (!!!) I'm so excited to see what God does this week.
b) I slipped and hurt my leg. (No worries, I'm okay.)
c) I broke my flip-flops. And Matthew offered me a piggy-back-ride. WEIRD.
D) Lance* and I talked. And e hugged me and said I was his best friend. (And Mikayla.) It was kind of good to get encouragement that he is actually excited about being friends. So not much else now! Hopefully more to write about tomorrow.
[P.S. Sorry for the fact that I'm not offering a lot of commentary. It's hard when the journal entries are not as fresh on your mind.
*Names changed for anonymity]
Day 4
[Dear Blog followers: Thanks for sticking with me the past 5 days as I was at camp. I'm going to be posting all of the journal posts one right after another, so check them out if you want.]
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
4.18.11 9:55 PM
Dear journal,
Yes. I skipped a day. No. I didn't do my devotional yesterday or today. Yes that means that in all technicality I have failed at my mission. But maybe I want to change my mission? Is that even fair? I suppose that in the grand scheme of things it doesn't matter. But am I letting myself don? So on to today's adventures. First of all last night was my party, which actually went very well. So after we checked out of the hotel we went to WalMart to shop for camp supplies. Two days woohoo! Ten we went to McAlisters for lunch. After relaxing for a bit at home we went to Target and I bought pretty pens! I then bought a new journal at Half-Price-Books. [Now my favorite store. If you have one in your area I would strongly suggest to check it out.] So tomorrow I have church as usual, followed by more packing for camp. By the way I am S.O. excited. Camp is going to rock this year. No drama. No distractions. Just God. So goodnight for now at least.
<3- Kathryn
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Day 3
[This is day 3 of my 30 day adventure. Also: things not said in my journal will be in these square things because I've found that occasionally I actually use parenthesis in my journaling.... Which made writing 'out-of-character' difficult.]
Day 3. 4.16.11 8:44 PM
Dear journal,
here's my daily check in! No Omegle -- I'm almost there! Safe! [Gosh. When am I going to stop mentioning this all the time??] Today my father gave us a long list of things to do tomorrow and I'm kind of stressed out about it. But I just have to know that if I breathe, stay calm, and work I can get it done.It's when I panic that things go wrong. I also created a bucket list! (Check it out!) I guess that yes, I am a bit young but if I start thinking now then I have longer to get it done. I was inspired because I'm watching Eat, Pray Love. And it's turning into my favorite movie ever. I decided that I want to be fearless in life. I want to take calculated risks and L.I.V.E I know that my "dream job" is an elementary school teacher, but what if I didn't have a desk job? What if I was a writer and people paid me to do my bucket list and write about it. [Having a job writing about anything would be fun... actually.] (P.S. not to self: write about experiences) I think that might be pretty amazing. (Except if I had a family... but you know...)
I also meditated. (Another Eat, Pray, Love inspiration.) [Goodness gracious I'm obsessed with this movie!!!] Not the Hindu kind. The Christian kind. But it was still amazing. Like I can't even describe it amazing. So now on to the crappy part of my day. Kayleigh*. We're still fighting. Sometimes I just feel like I should check out. Stop trying to fix the so-far-gone-down-the-drain relationships. [P.S.if you're reading this... sorry] Gah. I feel like we're in a frekin' marriage and I want to get a divorce, but she won't sign the papers! [Except for we're both girls. So totally not happening.] I wish I could run away to Italy. More good news -- my party is tomorrow. I'm so excited to just hang out and relax with my girls. So on to my devotional.
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
<3- This Girl.
[So there you go. My so-called-life. Oh, and P.S. I (might) have one more post, might not, it just kind of depends on my day tomorrow. But after that I'm going to camp, so you guys won't see me for a whole week :o!! But don't worry I will still be journaling and I will update you guys (goodness... 5 posts in a row... can you handle it??) when I get back. XOXO Thanks for reading! Love you guys!
<3- Kathryn]
Thursday, June 16, 2011
My Bucket List
I hope you guys enjoy this. Please comment if you have any ideas for something for me to add. (P.S. I know I have kissing in France/Paris on there twice. I'm working on fixing that. Oh: and when I add items to my list I'll add them here too. :P )
Bucket List
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
1.) Get a tattoo
2.) Get married
3.) Live in my own apartment for a year
4.) Run up the Rocky Steps
5.) Be in a movie
6.) Become confidant in my singing abiliies
7.) Be on national t.v.
8.) Dye my hair a crazy color permenantly.
9.) Have a baby
10.) Get into All State Choir
11.) Get into All State Band
12.) Win a piano competition
13.) Get in shape
14.) Journal every day -- for a whole year
15.) Go to a club
16.) Sneak out of my house
17.) Sleep outside and look at the stars (in my driveway/backyard.)
18. ) Stop biting my nails
19.) Go to Austria
20.) Go on a mission trip to Africa.
21.) Adopt a child
22.) Become a grandparent
23.) Buy my own house -- by the ocean/lake.
24.) Learn how to surf.
25.) Work at Sonic
26.) Become a professional piano player
27.) Live in New York.
28.) Be in the top 5 people of my graduating class.
29.) Learn how to fly an airplane
30.) Cut my hair crazily. (Bald? Mohawk? Pixi length??)
31.) French Kiss in France
32.) Own my own bed and breakfast.
28.) Own a horse
29.) Fall in love. Real love. The kind in the movies.
30.) Donate blood. As often as I can.
31.) Ride the biggest roller coaster in the world.
32.) Learn how to fluently speak ASL
33.) Become a special needs teacher
34.) Break a world record
35.) Go scuba diving
36.) Ride in a hot air balloon
37.) Swim with Dolphins
38.) Start a non-profit organization
39.) Reach 100 followers on my blog
40.) Write a book.
41.) See the Top 100 films of all time according to Time Magazine
42.) See the Top 100 films according to Yahoo
43.) Learn how to do CPR
44.) Learn how to drive a stick-shift.
45.) Read the top 100 novels of all time According to Time Magazine
46.) Start a bible-study.
47.) Visit Jerusalem
48.) Run a marathon/5k
49.) Go to Ireland
50.) Go to Italy
51.) see the aurora borealis
52.) See the Great Wall of China
53.) Visit all 50 states
54.) Skinny Dip
55.) See a show on Broadway
56. Kiss under some mistletoe
57.) Kiss undereneath the eiffle tower
58.) Visit a concentration camp
59.) Create a family tree. Extensive.
60.) Learn a poem in ASL and recite it to an audience of at lest 100
61.) Kiss in the rain
62.) Pay it forward
63.) Be in a flash mob
64.) See Les Miserables
65.) Movie Hop
66.) Register as an organ doner
67.) See a solar eclipse
68.) Create and fill a memory box.
69.) Ride the London Eye
70.) Order Chinese Takeout after 12 in the morning
71.) Go to the hot springs in iceland
72.) See the contenental ridge. (Take pictures for Mrs. Large.)
73.) Be a mentor for someone.
74.) Swim in the Dead Sea
75.) Own my own restraunt/coffee shop
76.) Try every flavor of Ben and Jerry’s ice cream
77.) See the Salmon Run in Alaska
78.) See the Macy’s Thanksgiving Parade... in person
79.) Visit a black beach
80.) Visit Arlington National Cemetery.
81.) Be on a Jury
82.) See a movie premeire (at midnight)
83.) Go to Germany
84.) See the changing of the gaurds at Buckingham Palace
85.) See turtles on the Galapagos Islands
86.) Stay at the Ice Hotel
87.) Register and Name a star
88.) Drive down Route 66 -- All of it. Stop in every town and get a souvenier.
89.) Learn how to write calligraphy
90.) Learn how to read Braille
91.) See a Ballet
92.) Take etiquite Classes
93.) Visit the ruins of Pompeii
94.) Send a message in a bottle (and get a reply)
95.) Be a vegetarian for a year
96.) Build a House with Habitat for Humanity
97.) Visit Mount Fuji
98.) Own a baby grand piano and use it on a daily basis.
99.) Plant a tree and nurture it until it grows.
100.) Visit the Wailing Wall
101.) Spend a couple years living in different countries (like an Eat, Pray, Love mission. One on each Continent except North America.)
102.) Meditate for 30 minutes every day. On God, specific verses, prayer, ect.
103.) Dance to Butterfly Kisses with my father on my wedding day.
104.) Volunteer for an orphanage in a foreign country for a year.
105.) Learn how to dance.
There we go. Again, comment if you have any ideas for items for me to add to this list. Hopefully I can get to work on achieving some of these goals ASAP. Oh, and also, if you have a bucket list, please share a link to where I can see it!! (or just post it in the comments...)
Love you guys! Thanks so much for reading you guys make my day (especially when I see 16 views in 1 hour?? I know that's not much for pro-bloggers, but for the dust-on-the-ground bloggers (like me!!!) that's a lot.)
XOXO - Kathryn
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
P.S. the list of things on my bucket list are in no particular order of importance. :)
Day Two
(Here is Day 2 of my 30 day adventure. Just a reminder, all Out of text notes will be in parenthesis)
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day 2 6.15.11 10:30 PM
Dear journal,
Today is Day 2 of successfully not going on Omegle, and I'm really happy and proud of myself. So yesterday I texted Jill*, Kayliegh*, and Matt* and asked them to be my devotional partners. (for those of you who don't know: a devotional partner is someone who you commit to doing a devotional (aka quiet time aka spending time with God) with for a certain amount of time. Common times are a month, a week, two weeks, ect. You just encourage each other and remind each other to keep it up.) So Jill and Kayleigh both committed to a month, but Kayleigh just backed out on me ugh. And she wonders what I meant by different priorities?? And I haven't heard from Matt, so IDK how he's doing. So basically the only person I know I can count on.... *oops I take that back. Matt hasn't done his yet, but he's doing it now. And Kayleigh claimed she hasn't seen her friends in forever so she's not going to be sorry about hanging out with them. I think that's a load of Bull because her Jackson friends are all she takls about. And plus I didn't tell her to be sorry, but 30 minutes for GOd out of 1,440 in your day? That's not a big sacrifice.* So now I'm sad. I can count on some of my school friends more than some of my church friends. *sigh.* 'Tis the life of an ordinary Christian American girl. SO enough with all this sadness and on to better things.
A) No drama!! *Besides Kayleigh* today. Whoop Whoop!!
B) Jill and I hung out today. FINALLY!!! I had missed her so much and it was soooo good to see her again. She just understands me so well. And just. IDK it's like we're soul sisters. And she's really helping me through all this Kayleigh drama. So I just pray as always that God keeps this stuff out of my head as I devote the next 30 minutes to him.
(so there you go. I guess you could say this devotional is going well. P.S. I also am in the process of watching Eat, Pray, Love, and it could easily become my favorite movie. It established me to make a bucket list (Check out my post about it) and to meditate (the Christian way of course!!). So I hope you are being entertained. I hope you get what you want when you read my blogs. Because I get what I need (my therapeutic needs and the feeling that I have company... even though I only have one follower) by blogging. Thanks for reading. XOXOXO)
* Names changed for anonyimity
Day One
(Okay guys so I'm going to post what I write in my journal.... with some editing of course on here.. if I have extra comments I'll write them in parentheses so you know...)
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
Day 1. 6.14.11 1:12 PM
So I'm going to start an experiment. I'm going to journal every day for 30 days. I need to have an outlet to express my feelings. (And apparently put them on the internet for the world to see... but whatever.) So here I go. I guess I would say my goal for this week is to stop going onto omegle. (Yes. That stupid site where you talk to strangers?? I kind of got addicted to it. But no more!!!) I also need to pack and get ready for camp. I'm purifying my heart so that I will be ready to focus on me and God for the whole week. No distractions (including drama!!!). It's going to be hard, but I don't need this, so I believe in myself. More later?
- Kathryn
11:07 PM
No Omegle yet today, and that's something to cheer about. However, a lot has gone on today.
a) Lance*. I gave him a ride to church today. I thought it would be awkward, but in reality it was actually S.U.P.E.R. fun. Sometimes it feels like we would be a really good couple. Or that he has feelings for me. But I don't know. I'm praying that God will lead me in the right direction. Also, he told Shelby* that he liked her, and she kinda told. E.V.E.R.Y.O.N.E. And Lance told me he didn't really like her, but I don't want to tell her that. It would crush her.
B) Kayleigh* I fell like after she moved back from China* she has changed. A lot. She dates all these guys. All she talks about are guys, guys, guys, and honestly, it's tiring to keep up a conversation with her!! So now we're playing truths. (If you don't know what that is, it's like truth or dares, but without dares. You just take turns asking each other questions and you have to answer otherwise you lose. It's quite a popular game in my circle of friends.) And I'm really worried. I'm trying to be honest without being rude, but it seems like everything I say comes out that way.
C) Bailey.* SO first of all a couple of days ago, she made this status about a "new best friend." (Just to clarify: I THOUGHT that we were best friends...) And immediately I felt horrible. (Because, as previously mentioned, I thought we were friends.) But I just ignored it and kind of moved on and put it out of my mind. People can have more then one best friend..... right?? Then, today, Bailey opened up a chat with me. And she told me to go look at her status. And she asked me to comment on it. So I commented saying that I felt replaced. Then do you know what she said? "Sorry but we were never best friends in the first place." That felt like a blow to the stomach. (hmm. I've never actually used that term before, I've just always heard it in books.....) I almost started crying right there.
So there's all my drama. I just pray to God that all of this *Or at least the lance/Shelby/Kayleigh part* gets resolved by Monday, because that is when camp starts. And I am swearing to myself no drama this year. Even if that means that I'm in a little bubble with me, God, and no one else. So now I'm going to do my quiet time.
Goodnight!
<3 - Kathryn
(So that was day one. Yesterday. I'll publish day two tomorrow (hopefully). So right now I'm sitting here at 3:04 in the morning. I was watching eat pray love, but i'm not anymore, because honestly i wasn't really paying attention. Does anyone have any ideas on how to beat insomnia?? Because right now I'm struggling with it.... Love you guys!! Please comment!)
*Names changed for anonymity
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